Welcome to my life, Chapter 8

[jenniiero]

Title: Welcome to my life

Genre: slash, drama, fluffy, angst

Pairing: David Desrosiers/ Pierre Bouvier

Fandom: Simple Plan

Rating: PG-15

Summary: Pierre Bouvier is a 17-year old boy who is an outsider at school ‘cause he is too afraid to get to know anyone due to his experiences at his previous school.

David is his classmate who is bullied and gets beaten up almost everyday. What happens when one day their paths cross?

Chapter 8. Memories

Pierre’s PoV.

“Have you ever dated anyone before?” I heard David ask shyly as we were cuddling on my bed. He turned his head so he could look at me.

“Once. When we still lived in Terrebonne. That’s when my parents found out I was gay”, I answered. David nodded.

“What about you?” I asked, even though I kind of guessed the answer.

“No. I’ve had a crush before, but they haven’t felt the same way”, David answered quietly.

“Does it bother you?” he asked cautiously and glanced at me. I squeezed David tighter against my chest.

“Of course not”, I answered and smiled before kissing the top of his head and feeling his soft hair against my lips.

“It’s not like I have a lot of experience either. That relationship only lasted for a few months”, I said. David nodded.

“I’m happy to be your first boyfriend”, I said and kissed him on his cheek this time. He smiled at me.

“And I’m happy that you’re my first boyfriend”, he said and hugged me tighter as suddenly memories flooded into my mind.



I sat in our living room with my boyfriend Chris. We were watching some random action movie from TV, although we were way more interested in each other than the movie. I didn’t even know what the movie was about anymore. It was a summery Friday evening and my parents were out having dinner with their friends. They shouldn’t be home in two hours. They didn’t know I was gay and not to mention that I was dating someone. My brothers were at home, but luckily they knew about us, so they let us be alone in the living room and instead hung out in their rooms.

There was another fighting scene in the movie when suddenly Chris pulled me into a passionate kiss on the couch. He laid me down on the couch as he came to lay on top of me. I answered his kisses the best I could. Soon we pulled away from the kiss to take a breath. We smiled at each other as we stared into each other’s eyes before Chris connected our lips again. That moment was perfect and for a moment everything around me faded away. It was just me and Chris kissing on the soft couch on a sunny summer evening.

“What the hell is going on here?!” A shocked exclamation from the living room door ruined the perfect moment. In half a second Chris jumped off from the couch frightened and I noticed that I was staring at my parents who looked shocked, to say the least. I felt a blush creeping on my cheeks and sat up on the couch to face my parents better. I glanced at Chris who was standing several feet away from me, looking for a way out of the situation. Too bad that my parents were blocking the only way out.

“Well?” dad asked angrily.

“Um… I have to tell you something”, I started. Dad crossed his arms against his chest as he waited for an explanation and mom’s shocked expression turned into a confused one. This was not how I wanted to come out to my parents, but since this had just happened, I didn’t have any other options.

“I’m gay. And I’m dating Chris”, I said and glanced at my boyfriend before turning back to look at my dad.

Dad looked at me with a disappointed and disgusted expression. I turned to look at my mom, who smiled at me sadly. She knew what my dad thought about gay people.

“I never would’ve believed that about you. What did we do wrong with you?” Dad spit the words out of his mouth and stormed out of the living room.

Soon the front door slammed closed behind him, making me flinch. Mom sat next to me and I could also see Chris visibly relax after my dad had disappeared.

“Pierre… I’m sorry about your dad. Of course I’m surprised about this too, but I want you to know that I still love you as much as always. It doesn’t matter to me if you like boys or girls or both”, mom said. I nodded at her, not being able to say anything ‘cause I felt like crying. I feel like crying ‘cause I didn’t want my parents to find out this way and also not yet. Also what mom just said was so beautiful. I just wrapped my arms around my mom’s body and she hugged me back.

“Thank you”, I whispered in mom’s ear.

A knock on my door woke me from my thoughts. David quickly disappeared from my hug to sit on the other side of the bed after the knock and I gave the permission to open the door for whoever was knocking on my door. It turned out to be Jonathan.

“You guys wanna come watch a movie with me and Jay?” he asked. I glanced at David questioningly, who nodded at me.

“Yeah, sure. What are you gonna watch?” I asked, knowing that David hated horror movies.

“We haven’t decided yet. If you’re quick, you’ll have a chance to have an effect on it”, Jonathan answered with a grin before exiting my room and closing the door behind him.

We got up from the bed and as we stood in the middle of my room, I wrapped my arms around David and pulled him into a hug. Soon I pulled away so I was able to kiss him.

“Well, let’s go then”, I said after we had pulled away from the kiss and I had stopped the record that had been playing in my CD-player. David nodded at me and we started heading downstairs.

My brothers were already sitting in the living room waiting for us, when we got there. We sat on the side of the black divan next to each other, although we left a bit more space between us than ten minutes ago in my room. Jay was laying on the other side of the couch and Jonathan was sitting in the middle of the floor, surrounded by several movies.

“What do you wanna watch?” Jonathan asked and smiled at us. We shrugged.

Eventually we decided to watch the movie Reservoir Dogs. Jonathan put the movie on and sat on the couch between me and Jay.

I had seen the movie a couple times before so as soon as the movie started, I continued my remembrance that was interrupted earlier, jumping a bit ahead in time.

I arrived at the school with Chris. It was autumn Monday morning and I was about to start my ninth school year in ten minutes. Chris was almost a year older than me and he was about to start tenth grade with my brother Jay. Jay had come to school with us, but he had already gone to find their other friends so we could have a moment alone. Chris was one of Jay’s closest friends, although these days Chris seemed to spend a lot more time with me than the others.

That’s how we actually got to know each other. Chris came over to our place about a year ago as he had started in our school as Jay’s classmate and almost instantly I had a crush on him. Gradually I became friends with him as well and halfway through the summer holiday, I finally mustered up the courage to tell him how I felt about him after I asked Jay what he thought about it.

“We should probably go. Are you sure you wanna be openly together here?” Chris asked as he looked at me worriedly.

“They probably won’t react well to it”, he continued. I nodded. I was fully aware that the kids in our school weren’t open-minded, but I also knew I wouldn’t be able to pretend to be just friends with Chris for long. And I also didn’t want to be away from him the whole school day, so I thought it was better to just rip off the bandage. That’s what I also answered to his question, making him smile at me encouragingly.

“Well, let’s go then”, he said. We exchanged a quick kiss before stepping into the school district.

Our paths diverged almost as soon as we stepped into the school as my lessons were on the opposite side of school as the others.

“Good luck. I’ll meet you here after the first lessons”, Chris whispered in my ear as he hugged me in the school’s hallway, in front of the math class. I nodded at him before he started heading towards his class. I earned weird looks from other students nearby as I smiled stupidly after Chris had left. At this point I wasn’t bullied yet ‘cause no one had realized I was gay.

After the math lessons I stayed in front of the class to wait for Chris. I didn’t have to wait long as I saw him walking down the hall towards me promptly. A stupid smile appeared on my face again. As he got to me, he wrapped his arms around my body and I answered his hug. I felt the other students staring at us as our hug lasted a lot longer than it usually does if two friends hug each other when they meet after class. Eventually we pulled away from the hug and smiled at each other.

“What do you have next?” Chris asked. I glanced at the timetable I had gotten from my teacher in the first lesson.

“English. What about you?” I answered.

“I have math here”, Chris answered and motioned towards the classroom I had spent the first hours in.

I nodded and looked around us, just to see that a few familiar faces had appeared in the hallway, including my brother. Jay noticed that I had noticed him and started walking towards us with his other friends. I greeted them and they greeted me.

“What’s up, lovebirds?” Jay asked and grinned at us. His tone was loud enough that we and his other friends heard him, but quiet enough that no one around us paid any attention to us. I stared at my brother, shocked about his comment. I glanced nervously at his other friends who just laughed at me kindly. At the same time, I felt Chris taking my hand in his. Jay and his other friends stood in front of us like a barrier so very few people saw us holding hands, but nevertheless I felt nervous. I looked at Chris confusedly.

“I told them about us”, Chris informed me, quietly. My confused expression turned into a skeptical smile.

“And we’re okay with it”, one of Jay’s friends, Brian, said with a smile as the other two Jay’s friends nodded in agreement.

“Thanks”, I said, taken aback.

“I should probably get going”, I said as I realized that the bells would ring soon. My next lesson would be at the end of a long hallway.

“I’ll see you in front of English class after the next lessons”, Chris said and gave me a peck on my cheek.

I felt myself blush as my brother and his friends were still standing in front of us and since the hallway was full of other students as well.

“Yeah, I’ll see you then”, I said before starting to head towards my English lessons.

After the English lessons we had lunch break. I stayed in front of the class to wait for Chris like we had agreed. There were very few people in the hallway anymore when students from his class started to walk past me towards the cafeteria that was downstairs. Soon I saw Chris walking to me. Jay and their other friends continued their way to the cafeteria, leaving us alone in the hallway. There were still a few students just hanging out in the hallway.

“I missed you”, Chris said quietly and smiled at me.

“I missed you too”, I answered and smiled back at him.

Chris wrapped his arms around my body and as an impulse I pressed my lips onto his, not caring about the few people around us. Chris answered my kiss and I could feel how the other students turned to look at us.

Soon we pulled away from the kiss. I looked around us and noticed that all the students that had been in the hallway were looking at us with widened eyes and open mouths. I chuckled.

“I’ve wanted to do that all morning, but it seems like there’s always people around us”, I said to Chris. He nodded.

“Yeah, me too. But now that the first kiss is out of the way, maybe soon we won’t care if there’s people around us”, Chris answered and smiled at me.

Chris was right. On the next break we kissed in a hallway full of people, not caring if they watched and what they thought about us. It felt right at the moment, but I would regret it later. I regretted it a bit already the next day when a couple guys from my class decided to beat me up because of it.

I woke up from my thoughts when the end credits of the movie popped up on the screen. Jonathan took the movie out of the player and put it in its box. We talked about the movie we had just watched and about movies in general until mom came to tell us that the dinner was ready. Jonathan and Jay started immediately heading towards the kitchen, but David and I didn’t rush. I had learned from my mistakes and stood against the living room door as I pulled David over to me so I could kiss and hug him before going to eat with my family.

After dinner David and I went back to my room. As usual, we sat on my bed with our backs against the wall and I wrapped my arm around David as he leaned his head against my shoulder.

“I wish we could’ve watched the movie like this”, David whispered and smiled at me.

“Yeah, it would’ve been nice”, I said and smiled back at him.

“But we can go to the cinema again someday and watch the movie like this”, I added and kissed his forehead. David nodded and hugged me tighter.

About fifteen minutes later there was a knock on my door. I pulled away from the hug and David moved a bit away from me before I gave the permission to come in. This time Jay walked into my room. I looked at him questioningly.

“I was just wondering if you wanted to come play video games with me? Jonathan just left for Amanda's place”, Jay asked. We got a PlayStation as a Christmas present last year. It was in Jonathan’s room ‘cause as he was the oldest, he had gotten the biggest bedroom and the second TV when we moved here. I glanced at David, who just shrugged as an answer.

“I guess, we can come”, he said and got up from my bed. I smiled and followed his example.

“Great! Otherwise I would’ve probably died from boredom”, Jay stated and grinned.

“I’m just not very good at playing video games since I haven’t played much”, David said, a bit embarrassed.

“It’s okay. You’ll learn”, Jay said as he started heading towards Jonathan’s room. After Jay exited my room, I gave a quick peck on David’s lips.

“It’s okay, I’ll teach you”, I whispered with a grin.

David smiled at me and we continued walking towards Jonathan’s room where Jay was turning on the PlayStation.

“Is FIFA okay?” he asked as we sat on Jonathan’s bed.

“Yeah, why not”, I answered.

After putting in the game, Jay gave us the controllers and sat in front of us to lean against Jonathan’s bed. I kept my promise and taught David how to play and soon enough he was decently good at it.

At night I laid on my bed as David laid on the mattress next to my bed. We had already gotten ready for bed and were about to go to sleep. We had even said good night to each other, but I could hear that David hadn’t fallen asleep yet either since I could hear him tossing and turning on the mattress.

“Pierre”, he eventually whispered.

“Yeah?” I asked.

“I can’t sleep. Can I come next to you?” he asked shyly from the mattress. I couldn’t help, but smile at that.

“Yeah, sure. I haven’t gotten sleep yet either”, I answered and moved closer to the wall on my bed. I heard rustling of the bed sheets and duvet as David got up and walked over to my bed.

Soon he was laying next to me. I pulled him closer to my body and he wrapped his arm around me. I pulled the duvet over us and hugged him back.

“Much better”, David mumbled contently.

“Yeah, it is”, I agreed and smiled.

“Good night”, David said and kissed me.

“Good night”, I answered and closed my eyes, while still holding David close to me.

It didn't take long, until I heard his sleepy humming and as I listened to it for a while, I drifted off to sleep as well.

*

In the morning I woke up and instantly noticed how awfully hot I was ‘cause of David’s warm body against mine. We were still cuddling under the duvet and my arm was numb after being behind David’s neck all night. I opened my eyes and glanced at the boy next to me. He was still sleeping peacefully and looked even cuter than usual. I couldn’t resist the temptation and kissed him. It took a while for David to realize it through his sleep, but eventually he answered my kiss. Soon we pulled away from the kiss and smiled at each other.

“This was a pretty great way to wake up”, David stated, still smiling at me.

I nodded and pecked his lips once again.

“I could take a shower. It’s so hot in here”, I said.

“Yeah, I could take a shower too”, David said. I grinned as a dirty thought came to my mind.

“I mean, after you”, David said and blushed slightly, probably realizing how his answer sounded. I nodded and got up from bed.

After the shower, I wrapped a towel around my body and stepped out of my bathroom. As I saw David in my room and felt his gaze on my body, I got a flashback to when he was staying at our house for a couple days.

“I feel like I’ve experienced this before”, I said and grinned at him.

“Experienced what?” David asked.

“That I come out of the shower, wearing just a towel and feel you admiring my body”, I answered and winked at him, making him blush again.

“Oh… That”, David said quietly.

“There’s just one difference… Now I can do this”, I said with a smile. I sat next to him, still wearing just my towel and kissed him. He answered my kiss eagerly, but pulled away soon.

“Um… Maybe I should just go take that shower before I get too excited”, he said sounding a bit embarrassed and disappeared into the bathroom.

As David came out of the bathroom, I couldn’t help, but stare at him too for a while. He was just so beautiful. He grinned at me knowingly. I guess his embarrassment went down in the drain as he was taking a shower.

“You’re one to talk”, David stated as he started putting on his clothes.

After he had put on his clothes, we went downstairs to eat something and drink coffee.

After breakfast we went back to my room and sat on my bed, though this time we left a little distance between us.

“What do you wanna do today?” I asked David. He shrugged.

“Maybe we should go to the cinema today?” he suggested. I smiled.

“Yeah, why not”, I answered.

Suddenly there was a knock on my door and I gave the permission for the knocker to come in. It was Jay again.

“Good morning”, he said and smiled at us. We answered the same way. He closed the door behind him and sat on my desk chair.

“What are you gonna do today?” he asked.

“We were just talking about going to the cinema today”, I answered.

Jay nodded. He was quiet for a while and just looked at us with a thoughtful expression on his face.

“I have a question for you guys”, Jay said suddenly, breaking the silence. I looked at him questioningly.

“Are you sure that you’re just friends?” he asked.

“Why do you ask?” I asked, not really answering the question. I didn’t even dare to glance at David’s direction.

“I was just wondering ‘cause I peeked in here last night and you looked so cute as you were sleeping together”, Jay answered, grinning knowingly. I feel myself blushing a little and even though I still haven’t even glanced at David, I knew his face was probably as red as a firetruck.

“Why were you peeking in my room in the middle of the night?” I asked confusedly as I thought about what he just said.

“I was curious, whatever. Just answer the question”, he answered dismissively. I sighed.

“Fine. We are more than friends these days”, I answered and finally turned to look at David. He smiled at me confusedly.

“I knew it. It was so obvious that you had a crush on each other when you were having a sleepover last time. And well, every time since then”, Jay said and grinned at us.

“Well, at least to me it was obvious. And maybe to Jonathan”, he added.

“Um…”, I said, not really knowing what to say. Also David seemed to have lost his ability to talk.

“I’m just saying… You probably could’ve cuddled while we watched the movie yesterday”, Jay said, smiling knowingly. I blushed again. I turned to look at David.

“Um… As you can probably see, Jay is maybe even a bit too accepting”, I said to David, feeling taken aback about Jay’s behavior. David nodded and smiled at me.

“But I’m happy for you”, Jay said as he moved to sit between us. There was just enough space for him to sit. He wrapped his hand over our shoulders, pulling us into a hug.

“Yeah, thanks, Jay”, I said as I pulled away from him.

“Can I come to the cinema with you?” he asked.

“I’d like to get to know you better, David”, he added, turning to look at my boyfriend. David looked at me questioningly and I just shrugged, leaving the decision for him.

“I promise, I won’t bother you during the movie. You can cuddle all you want”, Jay said.

“Oh, um… I guess it’s okay”, David answered and smiled at my brother a bit unsure.

“Thanks. Is it okay if we leave after an hour or so?” Jay suggested as he got up from my bed and started heading towards the door. We both nodded at him.

“By the way, have you told David about Chris?” Jay asked as he got to the door of my room and opened it. I just glared at him.

“Oh, you haven’t? Well, you could do it now”, he said. I grabbed a pillow from my bed and aimed it towards my brother, but he apparently saw it coming ‘cause he quickly exited my room, closing the door behind him so the pillow just hit the door and fell on the floor instead.

“Fucking Jay”, I muttered quietly. David looked at me confusedly.

“Chris?” he asked.

“Yeah… Um, you wanna hear a story about the guy I dated in Terrebonne?” I asked. His confused expression was replaced with an understanding one and he nodded.

“Before that, I just wanna say that Jay seems really nice”, David said and smiled at me.

“Yeah, he is really nice. But sometimes he’s also really annoying and way too curious. So good luck when we go to the cinema with him”, I said and grinned. David chuckled.

“I think I can handle it. I’m just happy that your brother or brothers accept us”, he said. I nodded and smiled at him.

David took a more comfortable position on the bed and I smiled at him before I started telling him the story about my past.

“So… As you know, Jay is about a year older than me. We were in the same school and Chris was in his class and was a part of Jay’s group of friends. Since Jay had started the school a year earlier than me and I knew that I already had at least him as a friend in our school, I hadn’t even made an effort to make friends from my class. I was always hanging out with Jay and his friends at school and that way I also got to know Chris. Chris started in our school when I started in eighth grade and instantly became Jay’s friend. He was often hanging out at our place with Jay and almost as soon as I got to know him, I noticed that I had a crush on him. Jay and Chris became like best friends and Chris started to hang out even more at our place.

Then finally in the summer after the eighth grade, I finally mustered up the courage to tell him how I felt after I had asked Jay if I should do it. I never would’ve done it if Jay thought it was a bad idea, but actually he encouraged me to do it. And it turned out that Chris also had a crush on me, so we started dating. We had dated for about a month when my parents caught us kissing on our living room couch. At this point they didn’t even know I was gay, let alone dating a guy. Mom took it very well, but dad didn’t, as you know. However, mom talked to dad and got him to accept us somehow. I mean he didn’t accept us entirely but at least he didn’t kick me out and Chris was still allowed to come over.

But then school started. Chris was ready to pretend to be just friends at school, but I couldn’t have done it after the summer. I wanted to be openly together. So… then on my second school day after summer, some guys from my class beat me up the first time after they saw us kissing in the hallway of our school. Chris never got beaten up ‘cause he was never alone at school. He had his friends protecting him all the time. Jay and his friends tried to protect me as well as they could, but it was difficult ‘cause I had so many classes on the other side of the school. Of course mom found out about the bullying very soon ‘cause I would come home bloody and bruised every other day. She talked to the teachers and the principal about it and they promised to do something about it, but it didn’t help. If anything, the bullies just got more mad and started beating me up even more. Then mom decided that it would be better for us to move somewhere else and my parents found new jobs from here. And when we moved, Chris decided that our relationship wasn’t worth even trying a long distance relationship, but he also understood that we had to move away”, I explained.

David listened to the story quietly, uninterrupted. As I finished the story he sat up on the bed and scooted closer to me so he could pull me in a hug.

“I don’t know why Jay wanted me to tell you all of this now, but at least now you know what happened”, I said as I hugged him back.

“Thanks for telling me. At least now I won’t be in the same school with you so you won’t have that problem this time”, David said. I nodded and kissed him.

“Although it would be nice to know someone from the new school”, I said and sighed.

“Well, you can never know if you’ll make new friends from there”, David said and smiled at me encouragingly.

“Yeah… Maybe I’ll make new friends there”, I said although I doubted it.