Been away.
So.
I have been away from this place for a while.
Lots and lots of things have happened. I am single again, for starters. (But okay.) I am looking forward to the new year a lot. I have almost stopped sleeping (3-4 hours a night average.) The bakery consumed my whole life. I also made the decision a few months ago to be radically sober from now on, forever. My reasons for this are pretty solid. Part of the choice is owning my past and looking at how being intoxicated makes me feel, act and what kid of positions it puts me in. Every time but once when I was sexually assaulted it has been while drinking, or by a drunk person, or at least a person who drinks. Every time I drink I get horribly sick. I've decided that my time with alcohol in my life is over. I don't think I'll ever miss it. The last 4 years I have drank less than 10 times, this past year only twice. Things have been moving this direction for a while.
But besides those developments things are going well. I am pretty ok. I am pretty healthy. I am also making new friends all over and really falling in love with my community. I have a new really close pal out in Portland who talks to me everyday now, which has super brightened my life up. I am just way happy. Things are way different, but they feel that they are in the right place now.
xo xo
I have been away from this place for a while.
Lots and lots of things have happened. I am single again, for starters. (But okay.) I am looking forward to the new year a lot. I have almost stopped sleeping (3-4 hours a night average.) The bakery consumed my whole life. I also made the decision a few months ago to be radically sober from now on, forever. My reasons for this are pretty solid. Part of the choice is owning my past and looking at how being intoxicated makes me feel, act and what kid of positions it puts me in. Every time but once when I was sexually assaulted it has been while drinking, or by a drunk person, or at least a person who drinks. Every time I drink I get horribly sick. I've decided that my time with alcohol in my life is over. I don't think I'll ever miss it. The last 4 years I have drank less than 10 times, this past year only twice. Things have been moving this direction for a while.
But besides those developments things are going well. I am pretty ok. I am pretty healthy. I am also making new friends all over and really falling in love with my community. I have a new really close pal out in Portland who talks to me everyday now, which has super brightened my life up. I am just way happy. Things are way different, but they feel that they are in the right place now.
xo xo