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Daily Horoscope for ARIES:
Don't be afraid to tell others what you are feeling, but remember to be gentle or you could scare them away. Your day improves as it continues, but don't get so excited that you exhaust yourself before you're done. It's a struggle for you to slow down enough to sustain the goodies, but they could last for days if you do.
This weekend was amazing & more needed then ever.
I love David being here so much.
We watched movies & went shopping & cuddled & laughed & talked.
I feel that even if I am alone the rest of my life, Ill be content with him by my side.
He doesnt judge me, he accepts me. He knows me & accepts me.
He is my soul mate.
We talked about where he would live when he graduated Pharmacy school & he said its a tough decision. Even though we have 2 years to go, I know deep inside he will stay in Indy. He talked about moving back home but living in Louisville & I just have this feeling that its not going to happen. If he stays in Indy, I will have no choice but to move there to be with him. I cant even stand him only coming home about twice a month, so I know I wouldnt be able to bare it him coming home any less than that. It was nice waking up to him playing tennis on his new ps3. We watched PS I love you as soon as I woke up & he held my hand the entire movie. I felt so complete that I honestly forgot what that felt like. I believe Ive been trying to fill that void. Im so glad he has a boyfriend that is amazing to him. I look at him & how far we've come. We'll be like this forever & that fills my heart with pure joy. Its like the feeling you get when you go into your favorite interior decorating shop & open up a fresh candle. That sense of warmth from the pure & fresh fragrance of your favorite scent. You close your eyes with that slant smile as you breathe it into your soul.
Sometimes I look at the trees in autumn & I get depressed. The tree looks so lonely & naked. I believe it makes me depressed because in a weird way it reminds me of myself. All of the color has fallen to the ground & gets swept or raked away. The only hope that lies within that thought is the fact that the tree grows leaves back after the winter. I guess in a sense it gives me some false hope that Im just going through a winter depression & I too will regain my true colors. I just know lately, I have been trying to seclude myself from everyone. I havent been answering my phone, Ive even considered deleting myspace. I deleted my msn messenger. Im in a foul mood & I feel like Im slipping further away. I want to be rescued, but I dont in the same way.
I just want to be understood. I just want to lay in bed with someone & talk about everything with the feeling of complete happiness. I want to run my hands through hair as I stare at a beautiful face, a face that I want to fall into. I want to be excited.
Don't be afraid to tell others what you are feeling, but remember to be gentle or you could scare them away. Your day improves as it continues, but don't get so excited that you exhaust yourself before you're done. It's a struggle for you to slow down enough to sustain the goodies, but they could last for days if you do.
This weekend was amazing & more needed then ever.
I love David being here so much.
We watched movies & went shopping & cuddled & laughed & talked.
I feel that even if I am alone the rest of my life, Ill be content with him by my side.
He doesnt judge me, he accepts me. He knows me & accepts me.
He is my soul mate.
We talked about where he would live when he graduated Pharmacy school & he said its a tough decision. Even though we have 2 years to go, I know deep inside he will stay in Indy. He talked about moving back home but living in Louisville & I just have this feeling that its not going to happen. If he stays in Indy, I will have no choice but to move there to be with him. I cant even stand him only coming home about twice a month, so I know I wouldnt be able to bare it him coming home any less than that. It was nice waking up to him playing tennis on his new ps3. We watched PS I love you as soon as I woke up & he held my hand the entire movie. I felt so complete that I honestly forgot what that felt like. I believe Ive been trying to fill that void. Im so glad he has a boyfriend that is amazing to him. I look at him & how far we've come. We'll be like this forever & that fills my heart with pure joy. Its like the feeling you get when you go into your favorite interior decorating shop & open up a fresh candle. That sense of warmth from the pure & fresh fragrance of your favorite scent. You close your eyes with that slant smile as you breathe it into your soul.
Sometimes I look at the trees in autumn & I get depressed. The tree looks so lonely & naked. I believe it makes me depressed because in a weird way it reminds me of myself. All of the color has fallen to the ground & gets swept or raked away. The only hope that lies within that thought is the fact that the tree grows leaves back after the winter. I guess in a sense it gives me some false hope that Im just going through a winter depression & I too will regain my true colors. I just know lately, I have been trying to seclude myself from everyone. I havent been answering my phone, Ive even considered deleting myspace. I deleted my msn messenger. Im in a foul mood & I feel like Im slipping further away. I want to be rescued, but I dont in the same way.
I just want to be understood. I just want to lay in bed with someone & talk about everything with the feeling of complete happiness. I want to run my hands through hair as I stare at a beautiful face, a face that I want to fall into. I want to be excited.