The poster with the kitty says "just hang in there"
Wow. I have not updated my journal in a long time.
You know, things aren't always as shitty as they seem.
I hate being away from John, but on the other hand I am getting a degree and an education and new friends out of it. Am I saying it's worth it? No. Nothing is worth being involuntarily apart from someone who is so amazing that you can't even find the right words to describe them. But am I saying that maybe it's ok? Yes. I love Bellingham, I love my friends, I love my apartment, I love living with my sister, I really like my job and I love psychology. So maybe it's ok after all.
Does absence really make the heart go fonder? or is it "out of sight out of mind"
That was the big question I was dealing with when I first moved up here. Was John going to want me more when I left or was he going to forget about me since I wasn't around? Was I going to want John more since I couldn't have him or was I going to forget about how great he is since I am around new people? This was something I wrestled with for a long time. It was something I thought I would never know the answer too. I know now though.
Absence really does make the heart grow fonder.
To anyone who is reading this and is taking it seriously:
If you ever have to go through a long distance relationship...it sucks. I'm not going to lie. It is the hardest thing you will ever do. It doesn't get easier as time goes by, it gets harder. Extremely hard. Sometimes you will want to give up. But just really sit down and think about it before you make any decisions. You will get stressed beyond all belief but don't attribute those stressors to your lover, it will only lead to tears. Just remember that once it is finally over and you are finally together it will be worth every second of being apart. It will be worth more than that. I will be the most beautiful moment of your life and it is the one moment you will live for.
To everyone else:
If you think this is cheesy, corny or a waste of your time; If you think this is stupid or you are laughing and thinking I am just a crazy with love idiot: Go fuck yourself.
I have never been more serious about something or someone and I hate that I get shit for expressing my emotions. So if you're uncomfortable reading this then you're just jealous and you need to go find love. (or at least get laid.)
I am completely and utterly in love with John Lovik and I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I don't care who knows it
You know, things aren't always as shitty as they seem.
I hate being away from John, but on the other hand I am getting a degree and an education and new friends out of it. Am I saying it's worth it? No. Nothing is worth being involuntarily apart from someone who is so amazing that you can't even find the right words to describe them. But am I saying that maybe it's ok? Yes. I love Bellingham, I love my friends, I love my apartment, I love living with my sister, I really like my job and I love psychology. So maybe it's ok after all.
Does absence really make the heart go fonder? or is it "out of sight out of mind"
That was the big question I was dealing with when I first moved up here. Was John going to want me more when I left or was he going to forget about me since I wasn't around? Was I going to want John more since I couldn't have him or was I going to forget about how great he is since I am around new people? This was something I wrestled with for a long time. It was something I thought I would never know the answer too. I know now though.
Absence really does make the heart grow fonder.
To anyone who is reading this and is taking it seriously:
If you ever have to go through a long distance relationship...it sucks. I'm not going to lie. It is the hardest thing you will ever do. It doesn't get easier as time goes by, it gets harder. Extremely hard. Sometimes you will want to give up. But just really sit down and think about it before you make any decisions. You will get stressed beyond all belief but don't attribute those stressors to your lover, it will only lead to tears. Just remember that once it is finally over and you are finally together it will be worth every second of being apart. It will be worth more than that. I will be the most beautiful moment of your life and it is the one moment you will live for.
To everyone else:
If you think this is cheesy, corny or a waste of your time; If you think this is stupid or you are laughing and thinking I am just a crazy with love idiot: Go fuck yourself.
I have never been more serious about something or someone and I hate that I get shit for expressing my emotions. So if you're uncomfortable reading this then you're just jealous and you need to go find love. (or at least get laid.)
I am completely and utterly in love with John Lovik and I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I don't care who knows it