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so i went out with the starbucks guy tongiht. we just went out for coffee and walked around mill. i dont know what i really think about him though. he is a really nice guy (and cute) and he has a lot of the same morals and feelings about things as i do (which is very important to me) but he is pretty negative about a lot of things. for some reason i am really quiet around him and i'm not quite sure why. i think i may see him again and see hwo that goes before making a decision. i really dont think i'm ready for any type of commitment though. i'm trying to figure out the real reason behind this. i keep telling myself that its because i just wanna be single and free and have fun. but i think its more of being afraid. i just feel like everything is going to be set up for failure in the end and that no matter how you feel about the person adn all of your thoughts on them - in the end its just not what you wanted/expected. i dont know. thats pretty negative and i shouldnt think that way. perhaps i should just stop thinking and go with where life takes me. eh.