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Oh goodness. Summer school is over, thank God. But lately I've been so darn lazy and all I do is go to Starbucks and read for hours and hours. Maybe this is called relaxing?
Life has been pretty good lately. I got back from Chicago on Tuesday, and that was definitely a good time. We did sooooo much stuff in two days; it makes my head spin to think about it all. Looking back, I'm amazed I survived. Too much testosterone (three guys and all their dirty jokes), too much fast food (BJ ordered $46 worth of Popeyes for the 4 of us just because we let him), and too much alcohol (first time I've gotten slightly inebriated) can make for an interesting weekend.
But now, life is coming to a standstill. What the hell am I going t do with myself now? I feel like i' m stuck in a rut until school starts again. But, I do have a list of things to accomplish in Colorado: run everyday (hoping to lose like 10 pounds because I feel FAT and GROSS); work on my writing; read a ton; make new friends? ugh, maybe not--just the idea makes me want to throw up; and i want to learn to cook because I'm an idiot and can only make tuna helper because my dad taught me when i was 7.
So I've been seeing this guy named Matt who I met at work. He's a lot like me actually. We're both really indecisive and kind of shy until we feel comfortable enough to open up. We're also both kind of self-conscious and insecure, and it feels so great to know that there are other GUYS out there like that. He's also really funny and we click in a weird sort of way; usually I'm reluctant to go out with quieter guys. It's obviously not going to turn into anything since we're both leaving (he's going to school in Texas), and he's said numerous times that he's not ready for a girlfriend yet. And that's completely fine with me. But last night we spent an amazing 5 hours at the beach, just talking and cuddling. I'm FINALLY getting to have that summer fling I've always wanted!
WHOA STOP EVERYTHING. Matt just called me, speak of the devil. Apparently yesterday he said he'd call me today and I must have forgotten he said that. A GUY ACTUALLY KEPT A PROMISE! SOOOOOO UNLIKE JOHN. WOW. I am so amazed. Because I have a hard time keeping thoughts to myself, I told him I was surprised he actually called and just as if it were the simplest piece of insight he said "well, it's not so hard to do when you actually WANT to talk to someone." WOW. I wish someone had told me that when John broke each and every promise. Of course, John didn't CARE. John didn't WANT to call me or hang out with me or whatever. I was an IDIOT to think that the relationship was salvageable. Wow.
Life is good.
Life has been pretty good lately. I got back from Chicago on Tuesday, and that was definitely a good time. We did sooooo much stuff in two days; it makes my head spin to think about it all. Looking back, I'm amazed I survived. Too much testosterone (three guys and all their dirty jokes), too much fast food (BJ ordered $46 worth of Popeyes for the 4 of us just because we let him), and too much alcohol (first time I've gotten slightly inebriated) can make for an interesting weekend.
But now, life is coming to a standstill. What the hell am I going t do with myself now? I feel like i' m stuck in a rut until school starts again. But, I do have a list of things to accomplish in Colorado: run everyday (hoping to lose like 10 pounds because I feel FAT and GROSS); work on my writing; read a ton; make new friends? ugh, maybe not--just the idea makes me want to throw up; and i want to learn to cook because I'm an idiot and can only make tuna helper because my dad taught me when i was 7.
So I've been seeing this guy named Matt who I met at work. He's a lot like me actually. We're both really indecisive and kind of shy until we feel comfortable enough to open up. We're also both kind of self-conscious and insecure, and it feels so great to know that there are other GUYS out there like that. He's also really funny and we click in a weird sort of way; usually I'm reluctant to go out with quieter guys. It's obviously not going to turn into anything since we're both leaving (he's going to school in Texas), and he's said numerous times that he's not ready for a girlfriend yet. And that's completely fine with me. But last night we spent an amazing 5 hours at the beach, just talking and cuddling. I'm FINALLY getting to have that summer fling I've always wanted!
WHOA STOP EVERYTHING. Matt just called me, speak of the devil. Apparently yesterday he said he'd call me today and I must have forgotten he said that. A GUY ACTUALLY KEPT A PROMISE! SOOOOOO UNLIKE JOHN. WOW. I am so amazed. Because I have a hard time keeping thoughts to myself, I told him I was surprised he actually called and just as if it were the simplest piece of insight he said "well, it's not so hard to do when you actually WANT to talk to someone." WOW. I wish someone had told me that when John broke each and every promise. Of course, John didn't CARE. John didn't WANT to call me or hang out with me or whatever. I was an IDIOT to think that the relationship was salvageable. Wow.
Life is good.