I don't know what to write about anymore......
Where do I start??? Life's been ok lately. I think I'm pretty much fully recovered from the whole infection thing. Thank god! I've been going to the gym on a daily basis for at least an hour a day. I've very proud of myself for that. I want to lose 40lbs by like November or December. Whether that will happen or not I don't know, but I'm going to try my hardest. I've been eating healthy food, not eating out really, so I hope it works.
I start school next week. Just one class this semester. I couldn't afford to take two. I'm taking BIO 101, it's 4 credit hours, so thats pretty good I think. Tues and Thurs are class, from 6pm-9:22 or something like that. It's one of the pre reqs for the Nursing Program.
Work's been going really good lately. I love the fact that I stepped down to just an associate. I only work Mon-Fri, 8-3 everyday. It's like a perfect schedule. I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner. Although the pay cut wasnt that great, I'll get used to it. I think I just need to deal with the fact that I'm gonna be broke for a long long time. Such is life I guess.
I'm going up north this weekend. I can't wait, I hope it's warm out, and not raining. I'm gonna try skiing. lol That should be fun. I haven't decided whether or not we're gonna leave Thurs night or Fri morning. We'll see. Me, Jake and Ches are driving up together and meeting all my family up there.
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On another note, my moods have been up and down lately. I've been trying to cut back on my medicine myself, and surprisingly for some reason, I seem to be in a better mood when I don't take it. Maybe it's in my head, I don't know anymore. I feel lately like I take second place a lot. That things that I say are the wrong things to say, and that I'm not aloud to be upset about anything ever. And if I am, for some reason, it always gets turned back around on my like it was my fault. I just don't understand. I often feel I'd be better off not speaking at all, so when I start to feel like that, I just shut my mouth and stop talking. I always seem to hear, I don't want to fight about this, or this is stupid to fight about. Well if it upsets me, then why is it stupid? If it was the other way around, it wouldn't be stupid. Problems just can't be ignored, they just don't disappear. I don't know, I'm just venting, cuz I just get frustrated sometimes. I hate feeling like what I want isn't good enough, or what I say is always wrong, it makes me feel really shitty.
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I start school next week. Just one class this semester. I couldn't afford to take two. I'm taking BIO 101, it's 4 credit hours, so thats pretty good I think. Tues and Thurs are class, from 6pm-9:22 or something like that. It's one of the pre reqs for the Nursing Program.
Work's been going really good lately. I love the fact that I stepped down to just an associate. I only work Mon-Fri, 8-3 everyday. It's like a perfect schedule. I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner. Although the pay cut wasnt that great, I'll get used to it. I think I just need to deal with the fact that I'm gonna be broke for a long long time. Such is life I guess.
I'm going up north this weekend. I can't wait, I hope it's warm out, and not raining. I'm gonna try skiing. lol That should be fun. I haven't decided whether or not we're gonna leave Thurs night or Fri morning. We'll see. Me, Jake and Ches are driving up together and meeting all my family up there.
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On another note, my moods have been up and down lately. I've been trying to cut back on my medicine myself, and surprisingly for some reason, I seem to be in a better mood when I don't take it. Maybe it's in my head, I don't know anymore. I feel lately like I take second place a lot. That things that I say are the wrong things to say, and that I'm not aloud to be upset about anything ever. And if I am, for some reason, it always gets turned back around on my like it was my fault. I just don't understand. I often feel I'd be better off not speaking at all, so when I start to feel like that, I just shut my mouth and stop talking. I always seem to hear, I don't want to fight about this, or this is stupid to fight about. Well if it upsets me, then why is it stupid? If it was the other way around, it wouldn't be stupid. Problems just can't be ignored, they just don't disappear. I don't know, I'm just venting, cuz I just get frustrated sometimes. I hate feeling like what I want isn't good enough, or what I say is always wrong, it makes me feel really shitty.
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