and everything fades to nothingness in your presence...
so hello everyone and a farewell day to you. my life has been ok so far. in the while i havent updated. but heres the low down on whats happened.
sat night: dance, funfunfun! went to eat with rachel, amber, david and alex. supposed to meet boo and tom there but when i called appaerently they had been there for a while. oh well, didnt matter much. went to the dance, broke up with cal, and hooked up with andy (mike darling) and left. david took us home. we were alittle late because david kept missing the exits.
Monday-wednesday: searching for andy during the day. brooklyn ignoring me and had mucho fun.
Thursday: saw andy at lunch. SOO HAPPY!! and talked to him. he called me tonight but i had to call him back later. so we talked and he might meet me and amber after school or at the game tomorrow night. that'd be funfun!!
Well, so anywhose. i dont care about brooklyn not talking ot me. what pisses me off that she tries to take amber away from me. that really REALLY made me mad. so, i really like andy but i dunno. i hope he likes me back like everyone says. that'd be cool awsomely awsome.
Kitty wants her sewatshirt back. i guess we could give it to her tomorrow after school.
I got toorence's alkaline trio cd. it totally kicks ass!!
Heres some poems i wrote:
Whispering Winds-
sweeping the clouds
dusting the stars
carressing the moon
kissing your cheek
ruffle your hair
simple things
subtle but kind
taken for granted
always there
yet not always noticed
so stop, listen
to the faint whistle
low, singing a sorrowful song
murmuring secrets of a far away time
stay still and silent for awhile
hear what it has to say
Never-
never...
never love
never care
never cry
never share
never trust
never hope
never help
never cope
never look back
never move on
never hate someone
never, never, never
never follow these wrods
Innocent Memories-
bubble gum, lemon yellow, purple
pink, marshmellow, puppies, kitties,
ribons and bows, satin and lace,
little fingers and little toes,
teddy bears, china dolls, licorice, the red kind only,
lollipops, butterflies, and my little ponies,
laughter, smile, hugs and kisses.
All the things a grown girl misses
Things of my past now gone in the wind
Covered in dust and locked within
But memories live on
And so must I
Roses, Violets, Fire-
roses are black
violets are dead
get out of my life
get out of my head
all the words that you said
now turn to dust
all the things that you gave me
now burn my touch
so burn, burn, burn, burn
and yet never die
but feel the pain
that i endure
as time slowly ticks by
About-
i cant stop thinking...
about you
about that night
about the kisses
about how you held me tight
about the cold
about your warmth
about the music
about the stars
and as this list goes on and on
i'll stay thinking about you
becuase i cant stop
Life-
born, live, die
life to death, death to dust
blowing in the wind
memories scattered by time
lost feelings hidden behind
rocks of lies, boulders of hate
until its too late
Paralyzed by Love-
frozen in place
unable to move
darkness closign in
throat gets tight
eyes wide open
seeing nothing, nothing but you
could i be paralyzed?
paralyzed by love?
Will You Be There?-
if i fall, will you be there to catch me?
if i cry out, will you be there to comfort me?
if i'm sad, will you make me laugh?
if i'm down, will you bring me up?
if i'm crying will you dry my tears?
if i ask, will you wait for me?
if i leave, will you follow me?
if i mess up, will you forgive me?
if i say dont go, will you stay?
if i say i love you, will you say it back?
if i die, will you cry?
this one deosnt have a title
All that has happened
all that has not
all effecting me
i thougth it wouldnt
i tried to be different
i tried not to think of you
but all i fell
all that i know
all that i dont know
keeps me awake at night
puts fear in my heart
clouds my mind
maybe it was nothing
maybe it was everything
maybe it was all a dream
well, if you are still readign this, good for you. time for me to go sleepy bye!
bye!
luve jen
sat night: dance, funfunfun! went to eat with rachel, amber, david and alex. supposed to meet boo and tom there but when i called appaerently they had been there for a while. oh well, didnt matter much. went to the dance, broke up with cal, and hooked up with andy (mike darling) and left. david took us home. we were alittle late because david kept missing the exits.
Monday-wednesday: searching for andy during the day. brooklyn ignoring me and had mucho fun.
Thursday: saw andy at lunch. SOO HAPPY!! and talked to him. he called me tonight but i had to call him back later. so we talked and he might meet me and amber after school or at the game tomorrow night. that'd be funfun!!
Well, so anywhose. i dont care about brooklyn not talking ot me. what pisses me off that she tries to take amber away from me. that really REALLY made me mad. so, i really like andy but i dunno. i hope he likes me back like everyone says. that'd be cool awsomely awsome.
Kitty wants her sewatshirt back. i guess we could give it to her tomorrow after school.
I got toorence's alkaline trio cd. it totally kicks ass!!
Heres some poems i wrote:
Whispering Winds-
sweeping the clouds
dusting the stars
carressing the moon
kissing your cheek
ruffle your hair
simple things
subtle but kind
taken for granted
always there
yet not always noticed
so stop, listen
to the faint whistle
low, singing a sorrowful song
murmuring secrets of a far away time
stay still and silent for awhile
hear what it has to say
Never-
never...
never love
never care
never cry
never share
never trust
never hope
never help
never cope
never look back
never move on
never hate someone
never, never, never
never follow these wrods
Innocent Memories-
bubble gum, lemon yellow, purple
pink, marshmellow, puppies, kitties,
ribons and bows, satin and lace,
little fingers and little toes,
teddy bears, china dolls, licorice, the red kind only,
lollipops, butterflies, and my little ponies,
laughter, smile, hugs and kisses.
All the things a grown girl misses
Things of my past now gone in the wind
Covered in dust and locked within
But memories live on
And so must I
Roses, Violets, Fire-
roses are black
violets are dead
get out of my life
get out of my head
all the words that you said
now turn to dust
all the things that you gave me
now burn my touch
so burn, burn, burn, burn
and yet never die
but feel the pain
that i endure
as time slowly ticks by
About-
i cant stop thinking...
about you
about that night
about the kisses
about how you held me tight
about the cold
about your warmth
about the music
about the stars
and as this list goes on and on
i'll stay thinking about you
becuase i cant stop
Life-
born, live, die
life to death, death to dust
blowing in the wind
memories scattered by time
lost feelings hidden behind
rocks of lies, boulders of hate
until its too late
Paralyzed by Love-
frozen in place
unable to move
darkness closign in
throat gets tight
eyes wide open
seeing nothing, nothing but you
could i be paralyzed?
paralyzed by love?
Will You Be There?-
if i fall, will you be there to catch me?
if i cry out, will you be there to comfort me?
if i'm sad, will you make me laugh?
if i'm down, will you bring me up?
if i'm crying will you dry my tears?
if i ask, will you wait for me?
if i leave, will you follow me?
if i mess up, will you forgive me?
if i say dont go, will you stay?
if i say i love you, will you say it back?
if i die, will you cry?
this one deosnt have a title
All that has happened
all that has not
all effecting me
i thougth it wouldnt
i tried to be different
i tried not to think of you
but all i fell
all that i know
all that i dont know
keeps me awake at night
puts fear in my heart
clouds my mind
maybe it was nothing
maybe it was everything
maybe it was all a dream
well, if you are still readign this, good for you. time for me to go sleepy bye!
bye!
luve jen