rain gets me wet.

[jennicha]

so today i went to meet with the professor im going to be doing research for this coming semester. as he was telling me the background of what the research was about and what the different research topics him and his group are currently investigating, i was trying my hardest to a) nod along so i wouldnt upset him by not understanding the entire organic chemistry mechanisms, b) soak up all information possible as to not make a fool of myself once i got into the lab, c) keep from thinking about how nervous i was to be doing research (these people are intimidating) and a buncha other things. he gives me about 6 of the already published research papers him and his students have done which have more info on the research and ive got to read up on it as well as on basic o chem mechanisms for the sake of not looking stupid. i wish i understood chemistry as well as people think i do. that would be swell. it's a hard concept for me to grasp, in research, you WILL fail. the projects you start on may take many many trials and they dont all come out as in chemistry lab. you WILL fail, i WILL fail. maybe this will be good for me, the guy im shadowing around tells me, "you'll get frustrated, that's what happens. it's a bunch of trial and error and you have to try to find a way to figure it out, it's brainwrecking and at the end of the day you leave the lab and you want to cry, but that's okay." he spent 8 months trying to make a compound in the lab for the study...8 months of trial and error. i would go crazy.

anyways, i leave the lab and it's pouring rain like pouring...and i didnt have an umbrella. fun stuff. jennie soaking wet. lovely. i was going to type something else but i cant even remember what it is i was going to say...probably better that way anyways cuz this is long.