Lonely
Hello LJ,
It has been far too long since I have said, "Hello." So much has changed in the last few years. SO MUCH.
In my last entry I had mentioned that Joseph wanted to work on our relationship and my own relationship with John was a shipwreck, so I agreed to try again. Eventually I found out that he was still dating someone else and after a very long and drawn out process I finally severed all ties to him. He even got to keep our three dogs - something that still breaks my heart. I spent 7.5 years of my life chasing a future that I didn't even want and that is incredibly saddening. I don't want to dwell on that though, because even though that happened years ago I still have to try and move past it some days.
After I finally "quit" Joseph, I tried to date someone else that proved to be just as poisonous as he was only he hid it extremely well at first. This, I won't go into much either as I'm done dwelling on it.
The good news about my life is that I am now MARRIED with a 5 month old son. Who actually needs my attention right now. To be continued!!
It has been far too long since I have said, "Hello." So much has changed in the last few years. SO MUCH.
In my last entry I had mentioned that Joseph wanted to work on our relationship and my own relationship with John was a shipwreck, so I agreed to try again. Eventually I found out that he was still dating someone else and after a very long and drawn out process I finally severed all ties to him. He even got to keep our three dogs - something that still breaks my heart. I spent 7.5 years of my life chasing a future that I didn't even want and that is incredibly saddening. I don't want to dwell on that though, because even though that happened years ago I still have to try and move past it some days.
After I finally "quit" Joseph, I tried to date someone else that proved to be just as poisonous as he was only he hid it extremely well at first. This, I won't go into much either as I'm done dwelling on it.
The good news about my life is that I am now MARRIED with a 5 month old son. Who actually needs my attention right now. To be continued!!