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I get really really anxious when I drive by myself at night. I realized that tonight when I was going to pick up Christen and when I dropped her off at her house. I just don't like it when I'm in my car by myself because if anything were to happen to me, then there's no telling what would happen. I try to listen to music to calm myself down but it just makes it worse. And when I don't listen to anything it makes it worse too. When I'm alone I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack and have a heart attack. I'm not even exaggerating. I probably should have kept taking my medication... maybe I'd be a little bit more chill when I'm by myself but I never think about things like that until things like this happen. But hey... shit happens I guess. It just sucks.