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I've been feeling weird lately. I'm trying to drink fluids, so I don't think it's dehydration. I feel dizzy and like something is crawling in my head. I don't recall feeling like this wih my last pregnancy..
I have a lot of anxiety that it's hard to word. I have a human growing inside me. Sometimes I feel like it's a parasite, sometimes I feel like it's my future child. I'm worried that the love forthis one will take away from my love for Topher. Either that, or I won't love this one as much as Topher. I know these are normal feelings to have. It still doesn't change my worry. I am also worried that this one wi have colic or something hard to deal wih. Topher was and is such an easy child to deal with.. I feel like to balance it all out, the cosmos are going to royally screw me with this kiddo.
I spend a lot of time in bed. It sucks. Ben seems to think I'm just lazy or whatever. I'm annoyed. I want out of bed. I want to be normal. I feel like here are bricks of lead tied to my arms and legs. I feel dizzy and get hot flashes when I'm up.
I want to cry. I'm really stressed out. Ugh.
I have a lot of anxiety that it's hard to word. I have a human growing inside me. Sometimes I feel like it's a parasite, sometimes I feel like it's my future child. I'm worried that the love forthis one will take away from my love for Topher. Either that, or I won't love this one as much as Topher. I know these are normal feelings to have. It still doesn't change my worry. I am also worried that this one wi have colic or something hard to deal wih. Topher was and is such an easy child to deal with.. I feel like to balance it all out, the cosmos are going to royally screw me with this kiddo.
I spend a lot of time in bed. It sucks. Ben seems to think I'm just lazy or whatever. I'm annoyed. I want out of bed. I want to be normal. I feel like here are bricks of lead tied to my arms and legs. I feel dizzy and get hot flashes when I'm up.
I want to cry. I'm really stressed out. Ugh.