I don't know what I'm doing
I'm going to college, but I don't know what for. I don't have a real job.
I just feel.. unfulfilled. I feel like a useless human being. Really. I live in a house provided to me by my uncle. I get food from the government, along with medical care.
I have no dreams, hopes, desires. I don't WANT to do anything, or be anywhere, or achieve ANYTHING in my life. I don't understand it.
Ben? WANTS to be a programmer.
Ashley? WANTS to be a photographer.
Topher? WANTS to be a fry cook, just like spongebob.
Even my own son has more ambition than I do. What the fuck?
Why am I even here? I'm not contributing to anything on this planet. I don't understand what my purpose is. I don't REALLY believe in god. I don't REALLY have a purpose. I don't REALLY have a want or need or desire.
I can't even make myself go to school anymore. I can't do it. I don't know why. Mental block. I'm going to end up dropping both my classes, my financial aid is going to be taken away, and next time I want to go to school, I won't be able to because I have to pay for it all myself.
What the FUCK is wrong with me?
I used to want something. I used to try for it. Now? I don't know where I am.
I just feel.. unfulfilled. I feel like a useless human being. Really. I live in a house provided to me by my uncle. I get food from the government, along with medical care.
I have no dreams, hopes, desires. I don't WANT to do anything, or be anywhere, or achieve ANYTHING in my life. I don't understand it.
Ben? WANTS to be a programmer.
Ashley? WANTS to be a photographer.
Topher? WANTS to be a fry cook, just like spongebob.
Even my own son has more ambition than I do. What the fuck?
Why am I even here? I'm not contributing to anything on this planet. I don't understand what my purpose is. I don't REALLY believe in god. I don't REALLY have a purpose. I don't REALLY have a want or need or desire.
I can't even make myself go to school anymore. I can't do it. I don't know why. Mental block. I'm going to end up dropping both my classes, my financial aid is going to be taken away, and next time I want to go to school, I won't be able to because I have to pay for it all myself.
What the FUCK is wrong with me?
I used to want something. I used to try for it. Now? I don't know where I am.