We can do it, we can do it, we can help our Cinderelly
So, I'm going to school full time this spring term. Good news, I got $800 just for going. Well, I suppose $700 after book purchase. Bad news is, I feel overwhelmed. Well, I was until Ben told me that he didn't think I could pass all my classes.
So. I took on extra credit in Sociology, I've been doing math homework like a fiend, and Spanish homework starts tonight. Ole!
But really. I got all upset because I've got so much on my plate this term. More than that, Ryan's a lazy bum who lives upstairs and takes away a TON of my privacy. Even more than that, Ben seems to think that we can't have a good trip together without fighting. He says "I want to make sure this can work" so he wants to go to the coast this weekend. Esentially, the sole purpose of this trip is to test our relationship. I feel like I must be "on my best behavior," and even if he does something to annoy me, I shouldn't bring it up. He does something that annoys me 80% of the days that we're together. Why should being away from home be any different? Why should I have to overlook the things about him that annoy me, or hurt me, or anger me?
Well, because I feel like I'll lose everything if I don't.
So, Jenners will be on her best behavior for this trip and be a good little submissive woman who doesn't question her man.
Nono, that's NOT what he's getting at. It's just what it feels like. We fought in Hawaii. Why? Because he got MAD at me for being sick. Fair? No. Then we fought at Sakuracon because we didn't do the one thing that was most important to me.
It's not like I don't have valid reasons for being upset, or bummed. And even at Sakuracon, I was a little sad, but I wasn't angry or anything. Then he kept bugging me and bugging me and trying to explain when I wasn't asking for an explanation. I just wanted a few minutes to myself so I wouldn't cry from disappointment. but he kept badgering me, and I cried. Note: crying while applying makeup is one of the most frustrating things for women, and he made me do it. So I got mad. He never listens. I ask for a few minutes,and he never gives them to me.
Maybe our relationship can't work. But is it fair to say it's only because we fight when we're on vacation? If we break up, I don't want him to file me away as "does not vacation well"
Bah. He's a really good guy. I'm sorry I only talk about the bad things. But those are the things I NEED to talk about, you know?
Also, I don't understand. We fight for a few hours while we're on vacation, but the rest of the time, we have a lot of fun. So I say "this vacation was fun!" but Ben says "we haven't had a good vacation yet" .... It's nice to know you didn't enjoy our time outside of the few hours we were fighting...
So. Bleh!
I should get ready for school. I have a test today in math, and I don't even know what it's on. :(
So. I took on extra credit in Sociology, I've been doing math homework like a fiend, and Spanish homework starts tonight. Ole!
But really. I got all upset because I've got so much on my plate this term. More than that, Ryan's a lazy bum who lives upstairs and takes away a TON of my privacy. Even more than that, Ben seems to think that we can't have a good trip together without fighting. He says "I want to make sure this can work" so he wants to go to the coast this weekend. Esentially, the sole purpose of this trip is to test our relationship. I feel like I must be "on my best behavior," and even if he does something to annoy me, I shouldn't bring it up. He does something that annoys me 80% of the days that we're together. Why should being away from home be any different? Why should I have to overlook the things about him that annoy me, or hurt me, or anger me?
Well, because I feel like I'll lose everything if I don't.
So, Jenners will be on her best behavior for this trip and be a good little submissive woman who doesn't question her man.
Nono, that's NOT what he's getting at. It's just what it feels like. We fought in Hawaii. Why? Because he got MAD at me for being sick. Fair? No. Then we fought at Sakuracon because we didn't do the one thing that was most important to me.
It's not like I don't have valid reasons for being upset, or bummed. And even at Sakuracon, I was a little sad, but I wasn't angry or anything. Then he kept bugging me and bugging me and trying to explain when I wasn't asking for an explanation. I just wanted a few minutes to myself so I wouldn't cry from disappointment. but he kept badgering me, and I cried. Note: crying while applying makeup is one of the most frustrating things for women, and he made me do it. So I got mad. He never listens. I ask for a few minutes,and he never gives them to me.
Maybe our relationship can't work. But is it fair to say it's only because we fight when we're on vacation? If we break up, I don't want him to file me away as "does not vacation well"
Bah. He's a really good guy. I'm sorry I only talk about the bad things. But those are the things I NEED to talk about, you know?
Also, I don't understand. We fight for a few hours while we're on vacation, but the rest of the time, we have a lot of fun. So I say "this vacation was fun!" but Ben says "we haven't had a good vacation yet" .... It's nice to know you didn't enjoy our time outside of the few hours we were fighting...
So. Bleh!
I should get ready for school. I have a test today in math, and I don't even know what it's on. :(