...I bow out quietly
So, I've never been so confused, ever.
When I got out of my boyfriend's car he asked me if "it was over". I said no, I almost said yes but I figured if I'd said yes I would've regretted it. It's so incredible how I can change my feelings towards someone so fast. I still care about him, he means the world to me. I think I may be in love with him? yeah. but right now I can't help but feeling awkward around him, which has nothing to do with him really, it's my problem and I need to fix it. I feel like I'm being unfair acting like this, so I'm trying not to think about it, but then I find myself thinking about it more. I've never had any guy ever treat as good as my boyfriend does, nor have I ever cared about a guy as much as i care about him. I don't know what to do. There's so much I want to tell him, I start to but then I stop, and I don't want to say anything at all. So much is running through my mind right now which is why I've been kindof quiet lately. Whenever I have a lot to think about I'm always quiet. I have to decide what I'm going to do soon though because it's unfair for me to keep acting like this to him.
:(
...I feel like there's no one I can talk to right now.
When I got out of my boyfriend's car he asked me if "it was over". I said no, I almost said yes but I figured if I'd said yes I would've regretted it. It's so incredible how I can change my feelings towards someone so fast. I still care about him, he means the world to me. I think I may be in love with him? yeah. but right now I can't help but feeling awkward around him, which has nothing to do with him really, it's my problem and I need to fix it. I feel like I'm being unfair acting like this, so I'm trying not to think about it, but then I find myself thinking about it more. I've never had any guy ever treat as good as my boyfriend does, nor have I ever cared about a guy as much as i care about him. I don't know what to do. There's so much I want to tell him, I start to but then I stop, and I don't want to say anything at all. So much is running through my mind right now which is why I've been kindof quiet lately. Whenever I have a lot to think about I'm always quiet. I have to decide what I'm going to do soon though because it's unfair for me to keep acting like this to him.
:(
...I feel like there's no one I can talk to right now.