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today im sick.
i think i have a cold,
though its August.
mother says its still very possible.
speaking of mother, shes sick as well.
she has a stomach flu or something.
its very sad.
so im very frusterated with my "friends".
i put lots of time and effort planning things
with them and calling them and telling them everything
and i get nothing in return.
they dont even try.
why do i bother?
really, there are so many other people in my life
right now who i could get close with,
and who would probably treat me so much better.
why do i waste my energy on these people
who only care about each other and not me.
i find myself being rude lately...i dont know if rude is the right word.Perhaps short with people, cold, distant. Im not sure. maybe its because of these damn people who treat me like crap.
i have just not been myself lately, and for that im sorry.
my sister is going away to college a week from friday.
thats adding to all of this crap.
i cant handle any of it, i really cant.
when she goes away, i know how weird my life is going to be.
i can already see it.
im getting back all my bad habits and i just dont know what to do about it.
help me.
i think i have a cold,
though its August.
mother says its still very possible.
speaking of mother, shes sick as well.
she has a stomach flu or something.
its very sad.
so im very frusterated with my "friends".
i put lots of time and effort planning things
with them and calling them and telling them everything
and i get nothing in return.
they dont even try.
why do i bother?
really, there are so many other people in my life
right now who i could get close with,
and who would probably treat me so much better.
why do i waste my energy on these people
who only care about each other and not me.
i find myself being rude lately...i dont know if rude is the right word.Perhaps short with people, cold, distant. Im not sure. maybe its because of these damn people who treat me like crap.
i have just not been myself lately, and for that im sorry.
my sister is going away to college a week from friday.
thats adding to all of this crap.
i cant handle any of it, i really cant.
when she goes away, i know how weird my life is going to be.
i can already see it.
im getting back all my bad habits and i just dont know what to do about it.
help me.