Release

[jennaxide]

 I left yoga tonight feeling really lonely. I feel like I'm the one that reaches out, that pulls people out to go play, that rushes in to meet new people and try new things. I am a planet at a pivot of a galaxy of orbits, and I love all those crazy worlds out there. I love exploring them. I am nourished when I am at home, for I am usually alone. But this also means that my little planet is only mine alone for me to inhabit. I have a lot of friends, but not many that are very close. I feel like not very many people understand or even see what happens here. I am greatly touched by those that have seen and been here, like Natalie. She and I have a lot of fun on both her planet and mine.

Yoga does this to me. That I leave the studio shaken and thoughtful should be a mark of progressive practice, I suppose. Also, somehow tonight during some ankle-grabbing something-or-other stretch I managed to completely unhook my bra.

Natalie called tonight, and we cried together a little while. This weekend she lost the baby.