thoughts
so i never write. i know that. but i'm thinking maybe it's something i'd like to start doing and maybe it will help me cope with the feelings i have inside. there's a lot of other things i would love to talk about but im not sure an online journal is an appropriate place for that. maybe that's just somthing i need to deal with myself. anyways, i'm babbling about meaningless bullshit, maybe i'll just start with the basics.
i just finished my first year of college today. it's so weird...i can't believe it. it went so fast... and if this year went as fast as it did i can't imagine how fast the others are going to go to. i guess i'm not quite sure how to feel about it all. i feel like it wasn't as much of a challenge as i thought it was going to be , but then again i also didn't put that much effort into it which i wish i would have. i can never bring myself to study- i tell myself "oh this will be so much easier if you start now" - but I always find an excuse and something better to do. maybe that's some kind of habit that i'll have to kick when i start summer classes may 29...but ugh, summer classes. what was i thinking? i guess it will be nice to get microbio out of the way. I currently attend Cleveland state but I will be taking microbio at Tri-C (a local community college) . I did that because it's over $1,000 cheaper and I hear nothing but hell stories about the microbio teacher at CSU. But I'm really not looking forward to having to go to classes- even if it is only two days a week- over the summer. it's going to suck horribly. Plus the fact that I will be working 40 hours a week... I dunno. I just feel like I'm going to be even more distracted due to the fact that it's summer.
On the other hand, I can't wait for August. Russ and I started planning our vacation and basically it is going to be our celebration for our 2 year anniversary. which is also crazy that him and I will be together two years August 22!!... We are going to see Incubus August 1st which I can't wait for. "Dig" is 'our song' to say the least and just to see them play that live(which they better!) will mean more to me than anything. We also have purchased tickets for 5 311 shows- Cleveland, Cincinatti, Detroit, Indianapolis, and Columbus. It's gonna be nuts- I can't believe we dropped so much money on just concert tickets but all I can say right now is that you only live once and sometimes, you just gotta do crazy shit. And it's gonna be so awesome because it's just gonna be him and I. I don't remember the last time it was just us, alone, with no one else in the vicinity! Gah I can't wait for this summer.
Other than that I don't really know what to say. There's a lot more shit that I have to worry about that I don't really want to/am not ready to talk about yet. Perhaps someday I'll realize that it'll be good for me.....
Thanks for reading my bullshit, you probably didn't anyways.
i just finished my first year of college today. it's so weird...i can't believe it. it went so fast... and if this year went as fast as it did i can't imagine how fast the others are going to go to. i guess i'm not quite sure how to feel about it all. i feel like it wasn't as much of a challenge as i thought it was going to be , but then again i also didn't put that much effort into it which i wish i would have. i can never bring myself to study- i tell myself "oh this will be so much easier if you start now" - but I always find an excuse and something better to do. maybe that's some kind of habit that i'll have to kick when i start summer classes may 29...but ugh, summer classes. what was i thinking? i guess it will be nice to get microbio out of the way. I currently attend Cleveland state but I will be taking microbio at Tri-C (a local community college) . I did that because it's over $1,000 cheaper and I hear nothing but hell stories about the microbio teacher at CSU. But I'm really not looking forward to having to go to classes- even if it is only two days a week- over the summer. it's going to suck horribly. Plus the fact that I will be working 40 hours a week... I dunno. I just feel like I'm going to be even more distracted due to the fact that it's summer.
On the other hand, I can't wait for August. Russ and I started planning our vacation and basically it is going to be our celebration for our 2 year anniversary. which is also crazy that him and I will be together two years August 22!!... We are going to see Incubus August 1st which I can't wait for. "Dig" is 'our song' to say the least and just to see them play that live(which they better!) will mean more to me than anything. We also have purchased tickets for 5 311 shows- Cleveland, Cincinatti, Detroit, Indianapolis, and Columbus. It's gonna be nuts- I can't believe we dropped so much money on just concert tickets but all I can say right now is that you only live once and sometimes, you just gotta do crazy shit. And it's gonna be so awesome because it's just gonna be him and I. I don't remember the last time it was just us, alone, with no one else in the vicinity! Gah I can't wait for this summer.
Other than that I don't really know what to say. There's a lot more shit that I have to worry about that I don't really want to/am not ready to talk about yet. Perhaps someday I'll realize that it'll be good for me.....
Thanks for reading my bullshit, you probably didn't anyways.