I'm aware, I'm in love but you dont care.

[jennaraelovesu]

SO, last night I send Todd a text message that says "I can't believe you, I sure hope you're happy." He starts beeping me but I don't answer it and then he alerts me and I still don't answer it. A fucking girl starts yelling in his phone at me telling me to answer the phone. Then, she calls me and leaves me a voicemail that says "Hey Jenna, this is Nicole and I was just wondering that he was doing that you couldnt believe and apparently he is happy bc he so calls says this is the happiest he's ever been.." How low is it to call me like that and how bitch is it for Todd to LET her do that? First of all, I have voicemails of Todd crying to me saying how much he misses me and wants to be with me and those were sent to me on Monday. He just changes his mind Tuesday, what a bastard. I hope he is happy with her and I hope she cheats on him. That's ridiculous, it really is.

Matthew James is my bestest friend ever. Me and him will get married one day and have beautiful babies. He always makes me feel so much better.

Tonight I will "escape reality"...I want to be in a whole different world. I deserve a weekend to get away -- i havent gotten drunk in way too long.