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i had an aweful day yesterday until 1. I saw paige at 1... which made the whole day better because she put the "situation" into a different perspective for me. Maybe it isn't me. Maybe something is going on with him. i don't know. but i've just got to be patient. maybe that's what God is trying to teach me. You know, for so long, I was hurting because of everything that's been happening. and now, i have to be taught to be patient and let him handle it. i sit here with my brain making connections and clicking like a second hand on a clock. maybe he was here to get me through this. i know everything happens for a reason and there must be a reason why this is happening again. I may not see it now but i will soon. and i will forgive him if he asks for forgiveness, i'm sure he knows that he hurt me. but it will hard to be the same and back to what was normal for us. but it can be if he wants it to be. but i will never regret what happened, what i said, or what he said. everything was meant to happen. there was a reason. that's what i have to remind myself of. soooo... i'll wait and be patient for him and that's all i can do at this time. until then, i love you and hope to see you soon.