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I noticed the other day that I am developing old hands. The type of condition that only older women have. Where your knuckles stick out like door knobs, and the tendons raise th skin like a tent, and the flesh itself is loose and hugs the under structure of bone and muscle in a very unforgiving manner. I think it looks like a skeleton.
My ands are my tools in the theatre. Sure I can, and do wear gloves, but not to protect them. i don't want delicate tea drinker's hands. I also don't want every vein visible. It would look like I'm not fit to lift things, or to have a steady hand in general. Like someone would catch sight of my gnarled old tree hands as I use a wrench and think they should help me, that I'm not able to do stuff. I don't mind the wrinkles, but if I were to point my fingers the flesh just bunches and folds.
I know I'm only twenty, but it's the fact that everything is getting harder. I work harder and live tougher, and sleep less. All these things are just working their way into my skin and making it dry and weak.
My ands are my tools in the theatre. Sure I can, and do wear gloves, but not to protect them. i don't want delicate tea drinker's hands. I also don't want every vein visible. It would look like I'm not fit to lift things, or to have a steady hand in general. Like someone would catch sight of my gnarled old tree hands as I use a wrench and think they should help me, that I'm not able to do stuff. I don't mind the wrinkles, but if I were to point my fingers the flesh just bunches and folds.
I know I'm only twenty, but it's the fact that everything is getting harder. I work harder and live tougher, and sleep less. All these things are just working their way into my skin and making it dry and weak.