Gone
Dreams die hard. And this one was so new to me, I mean, I'd only gotten to play with DarkStar once. One night is hardly enough to say that he's "mine" or "ours", it's not enough to say that I can tell him apart from the other black cat, not enough to predict what he'll do based on his personality that I didn't get to know.
I didn't know him. So how can I miss him? Simple, I guess I don't really. I guess it's more of the idea, my CAT is gone. That's all he was at this point, just, my kitten.
As much as it kills me to admit it, maybe he was just like, a trophy kitten. Just some THING that I wanted to own. How could I have thought of him as anything else?
Sure, just being able to say that was awesome and completing....but I'm being selfish....I couldn't care for him and it's unfair of me to ask anyone else to keep him for me until the Gods know when....
I just hope his new home is what's best for him.
It could have been worse, I could have gotten to say good bye, or he could have been dead, or something irrelevant and horrible. The only thing that happened, is that the kittens all have homes.
Perhaps I feel guilty, hat I'm making everyone else hurt because of a stupid whim. Kevin got to play with DarkStar more and he was quite upset (understatement) when he found out, and he said he couldn't figure out how to tell me. Kevin misses a kitten. That never would have happened if not for me.....And same for him mother and grandmother who feel bad that they had to give him away because of how I'd feel.
So, for the record, I'm glad he has a home. And maybe one day, when I can positively keep one, I'll get another.
Good bye....Good bye. Good Bye. and GOOD bye.
I didn't know him. So how can I miss him? Simple, I guess I don't really. I guess it's more of the idea, my CAT is gone. That's all he was at this point, just, my kitten.
As much as it kills me to admit it, maybe he was just like, a trophy kitten. Just some THING that I wanted to own. How could I have thought of him as anything else?
Sure, just being able to say that was awesome and completing....but I'm being selfish....I couldn't care for him and it's unfair of me to ask anyone else to keep him for me until the Gods know when....
I just hope his new home is what's best for him.
It could have been worse, I could have gotten to say good bye, or he could have been dead, or something irrelevant and horrible. The only thing that happened, is that the kittens all have homes.
Perhaps I feel guilty, hat I'm making everyone else hurt because of a stupid whim. Kevin got to play with DarkStar more and he was quite upset (understatement) when he found out, and he said he couldn't figure out how to tell me. Kevin misses a kitten. That never would have happened if not for me.....And same for him mother and grandmother who feel bad that they had to give him away because of how I'd feel.
So, for the record, I'm glad he has a home. And maybe one day, when I can positively keep one, I'll get another.
Good bye....Good bye. Good Bye. and GOOD bye.