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today i turned 19.
today i learned more about love and lies and loss and life.
i love you.
i lie to myself about love.
i lose people i love because of lies.
i lose love because of my lies and i don't like that in my life.
but i can't help it.
i can't resist a challenge, and you certainly are, in fact, a challenge.
you want me - you don't want me.
which is it?
why can't you choose?
what's keeping you from deciding?
why do i have an unhealthy obsession with you?
why can't i just be satisfied?
where does the point of enough begin and finish..
i have no idea.
who really does know, right?
i had such fun.
keeping you a secret from all the world.
but the secret's out.
and now i feel alone.
today i turned 19.
today i learned more about love and lies and loss and life.
i love you.
i lie to myself about love.
i lose people i love because of lies.
i lose love because of my lies and i don't like that in my life.
but i can't help it.
i can't resist a challenge, and you certainly are, in fact, a challenge.
you want me - you don't want me.
which is it?
why can't you choose?
what's keeping you from deciding?
why do i have an unhealthy obsession with you?
why can't i just be satisfied?
where does the point of enough begin and finish..
i have no idea.
who really does know, right?
i had such fun.
keeping you a secret from all the world.
but the secret's out.
and now i feel alone.
today i turned 19.