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I'm sick and tired of trying for things that I really really want, and I NEVER get them. What's wrong with me? What's wrong with me that I feel like I even have a chance at getting something, when I know I won't? Idk. I really wanted this and I didn't get it, and I had some inside people who promised me some help, and they didn't give me any. I mean after all I've done for them, I drive them everywhere and buy them shit and I mean the least they could do is help me out. I know it might have been dishonest, but hey, he wouldn't have cared. I don't know, it's just embarassing that I try so hard for stuff and I never get it. I know the only reason my friends got it was because nobody else ran against them. But you know, I'm the only one who ran for something and didn't get it. Now I feel like everyone's like "aw, poor jenna, she wanted something, but didn't get it. let's just give her something to make her feel better." and you know, that could be nice and all, but to me, it's just kindof insulting. Especially if I put forth a lot of work, and I don't get the recognition I deserve. Anyways, this just goes to show that you do shit for people and you think you're appreciated for it, but then this kind of thing happens. Don't let people walk all over you just for being kind.