Blue Eyes
So just to say, Lisa's birthday party was awsome. God how do I love that lady!!! Yeah Tiff's mom! Seth and Chris came which was awesome and they ended up having a good time. Yay. After that I went with them to gaming which was interesting enough.
Now the big thing. Seth and I ended up having the "talk." You know, the one about where things are going and such. Ugh. I don't know what to think. Well what it came down to was, "If I was doing this with someone else right now, would you be jealous?" and he said yes. That's a GREAT thing let me tell you but, I guess he just has a lot of figuring out to do. So basically we're not going to see anyone else but we're not "going out" yet. Stupid but not at the same time. Hey, at least I knew this boy longer than a week before I started to like him. :)
Seth's last girlfriend was three years ago. And guess what, he's still not over her. Uh oh. I can understand to an extent because she was his first love, but come on now. I'm not completely over Mike because he was my first love, but I know it's never going to happen with him again and I've moved on. That's what has to happen.
He was just telling me about a lot of stuff last night. "We have a lot more in common than we both know" was the best thing of the night, but there was something negative that kind of stayed in my mind too. He was talking about learning all this stuff about himself recently, stuff that probably would've helped his last relationship, and he said, "If I would've known these things about myself things would probably be different. I might still be in Madison right now and I would never have met you." How would you take that? I dont' know how to take that. I couldn't tell from his voice if that was a, "Well we shouldn't start anything because there's a chance that I never could've met you and I don't have a problem with that," or, "If I hadn't met you that would suck." Why are boys so confusing?
Knowing my prior experiences, this is going to end in heartbreak. Wasted time like everything else. The problem is, this is the first guy that I've grown to like in a long time. I didn't just jump into things. We've been getting to know eachother, and that's how things work the best for me. So I know that he could be another Mike and there's nothing in the world that I want more.
Wish me all the luck in the world. I'm going to try my hardest to catch this one and keep him. P.S. His hugs and kisses are to die for. He's coming with us for Spring Break. :)