every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore.
I don't really know what to write. It's been a long two days. emotions up and down like no other. I cry at the drop of a hat and the same thing that made me cry can make me smile. I don't get it. I finally started being honest with myself. I've discovered a lot of things that I never really wanted to admit but I guess it's better that I did. It's almost like I'm self destructive and there's nothing I can do about it. I guess we'll see what happens. I was in a really good mood by the time I got on the late bus after cheerleading. I was singing and dancing the whole way home. Danielle ignored me. lol. I had a good conversation with my mom. I think she's finally started to trust me and seeing I'm not the bad kid she thinks I am. I mean granted I drink any chance I get but shes got such a bad image of me and it's completely wrong. so I think that's finally headed toward changing. My room is coming along. Getting rid of that ugly border and I ripped down that damn valance myself the other day. My room already looks brighter and better. thank god. I'm trying to find what it is I want to paint on my closet doors and I'm working on something I'm gonna write on it. we'll see how it all ends up soon enough. As for my fatherly issues, he doesn't really bother me anymore. Yea, I mean I've got my problems with trust and recent events involving him and some not involving him have done nothing to do anything but confirm those issues but I'm workin on it. If anything, my dad just makes me angry, he doesn't upset me anymore. I can't let it, I mean it's simply pathetic when I'm more mature than my 48 year old father and there's nothing else to it. aside from that I've got no plans for the weekend but next week will be fun. I guess I really did have a lot to say but I'm hungry right now so it's time for dinner.