the smell after it rains...
it's been such a shitty day and I've had nothing to do so I got to thinking about a lot of different things. everything is changing. there's all this shit now with cheerleading. I love working with new people and sometimes a little change is good, but when there's 2 people that you're used to seeing everyday after school aren't there it's just weird. and I know fele is coming back but things are just different anyway. at least for our first competition anyway. who knows what's gonna happen next season.
my dad's been more and more distant lately. I wasn't home yesterday so he didn't come up and then today he had some plans or whatever. He's got some girlfriend so I'm sure it had something to do with her. i love how he'll spend time with her but won't come to see his own fucking kids. and matt was home this weekend too. my dad always says how he hasnt seen him in so long bla bla bla but when you only come up for an hour on thanksgiving and then dont even bother on saturday and sunday what do you expect. i dont feel bad that he's alone anymore, it's his fault.
I can't wait to go back to school. I hate having long weekends, I get bored and I start to think too much. I always end up making myself upset over stupid shit. I need something or someone to distract me. thank god tomorrows monday. (how ironic)
my dad's been more and more distant lately. I wasn't home yesterday so he didn't come up and then today he had some plans or whatever. He's got some girlfriend so I'm sure it had something to do with her. i love how he'll spend time with her but won't come to see his own fucking kids. and matt was home this weekend too. my dad always says how he hasnt seen him in so long bla bla bla but when you only come up for an hour on thanksgiving and then dont even bother on saturday and sunday what do you expect. i dont feel bad that he's alone anymore, it's his fault.
I can't wait to go back to school. I hate having long weekends, I get bored and I start to think too much. I always end up making myself upset over stupid shit. I need something or someone to distract me. thank god tomorrows monday. (how ironic)