Jan 25, 2009 03:06
and that's how this idea was drilled into my head.
It was something I felt that I needed to do to settle my mind, and I'm glad I did it. No regrets, whatsoever. The simplest of things can change someone's entire outlook on situations. I feel great and very content. I'm learning to not hate people. Hating things is one thing, hating people is another. I don't want to hate anyone. I'll always stronlgly dislike people, but unless they hurt someone I love or someone I care about in a cruel way, I don't hate them.
Right now it's 3:09 AM, Marissa is asleep behind me and some weird movie where "fuck" is basically the only word said. I drnk iced coffee tonight, which I shouldn't have. Very awake. Sleepovers are fun until you have to sleep and wake up at someone else's house. I seriously hate that feeling. I always feel confused, sick, and misplaced, when I wake up somewhere other than my bed. I wish I could stay out as late as I want and then just go home when it's time to sleep. The worst part is getting home. I have to walk from Marissa's, which means I have to cross the main freaking road to get home. Park Ave; looking disgusting, tired, and greasy, carrying all of my stuff. It's really awful haha. I put my hood on, but anyone driving by knows it's me.
Look at me, ranting on about sleepovers.
Tonight was ve ve ve very fun though; we made mad vids and then Nate came over for a couple hours. Marissa and I were gonna go out with T, Rachel, and Amie, but neither of us felt up to going out anywhere; for me it was because my legs are still killing me from Winterball and my right knee has been hurting lately :/ I always have some sort of issue.
I've decided that everything will change tomorrow.. or today, rather. I can't wait.