and it's been autumn since the day that i met you.
The unexpected always seems to happen; like yesterday, for example. I'm happy though, it's the little things that matter most.
I'm starting to realize how easily disappointed and annoyed I tend to get. I keep comparing and criticizing everything in my head. I haven't been telling most people most things either, lately, because honestly, there's only one person on this planet I trust completely. Trust, with things I have said, that is. Everyone else has given me a reason not to trust them totally; and I'm not saying that I haven't done the same thing to others, because I know I have. Sometimes I get really angry when I think about things like this, no matter what the outcome was.
Last night I wrote a lot, and read a lot of old journal entries. I feel like each part of my life has a theme song that plays when I recall on it. The first part of last year was "Dark Blue" and also "Rescued" and basically everything else on Everything in Transit. I didn't write all summer, so I don't really know what song to think of when it comes into my mind, yet. It's weird hearing these songs because it reminds me of my memories :) but I don't mind. Everything is reminding me of something in the past these days. I find myself laughing and smiling or frowning. I really do love my past, come to think of it. I've had so many good times.
Jamie gave me North and Leaving Through the Window by SoCo to borrow yesterday. I'm listening to them right now. SO amazing. I love Something Corporate so so so much. I think the best part about SoCo is that I feel like some of the lyrics were written about me. I love relating myself to these words. It feels so real.
Tonight is Winterball. I'm really excited, even though I don't exactly know my plans before and after, which drives me crazy. It's just going to be nice to have a good night without drama, and just a good time. I'm not sure about my mask yet, if I'm even wearing one. Hmmmm.
Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue
And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside his room, he paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside his room, he paints me blue.
I'm starting to realize how easily disappointed and annoyed I tend to get. I keep comparing and criticizing everything in my head. I haven't been telling most people most things either, lately, because honestly, there's only one person on this planet I trust completely. Trust, with things I have said, that is. Everyone else has given me a reason not to trust them totally; and I'm not saying that I haven't done the same thing to others, because I know I have. Sometimes I get really angry when I think about things like this, no matter what the outcome was.
Last night I wrote a lot, and read a lot of old journal entries. I feel like each part of my life has a theme song that plays when I recall on it. The first part of last year was "Dark Blue" and also "Rescued" and basically everything else on Everything in Transit. I didn't write all summer, so I don't really know what song to think of when it comes into my mind, yet. It's weird hearing these songs because it reminds me of my memories :) but I don't mind. Everything is reminding me of something in the past these days. I find myself laughing and smiling or frowning. I really do love my past, come to think of it. I've had so many good times.
Jamie gave me North and Leaving Through the Window by SoCo to borrow yesterday. I'm listening to them right now. SO amazing. I love Something Corporate so so so much. I think the best part about SoCo is that I feel like some of the lyrics were written about me. I love relating myself to these words. It feels so real.
Tonight is Winterball. I'm really excited, even though I don't exactly know my plans before and after, which drives me crazy. It's just going to be nice to have a good night without drama, and just a good time. I'm not sure about my mask yet, if I'm even wearing one. Hmmmm.
Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue
And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside his room, he paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside his room, he paints me blue.