"there's no antidote for irony", you say.
I realized many things about myself yesterday. It may sound like I should already know this, but I realized how much I TRULY love music. I was listening to songs from my childhood, by bands that aren't even in my mental lists of favorites, and they brought back so much. I remembered being young and certain memories were triggered by the songs. It's amazing how many stories one song can hold and it's incredible what kind of control the lyrics hold.
I also realized, among many other things, what kind of person I am. When people joke around and call me a deep person, I join in because I enjoy making fun of myself haha, but it's true. I was staring at a crack of streetlight coming through the blinds and I got completely lost in it, creating images and stories in my mind. I guess that kind of thing is something that comes along with artistry, because imagination is necessary to create. I wouldn't change myself for anything.
Last night Kayla and I went over to Nate's house and sort of half watched the Wedding Singer. We basically talked about everything and reflected on the old days. It's crazy to think how old we are now and how everything ended up falling to place. I mean, Kayla is my best friend ever, and Nate is one of my best friends. Who would have thought that years after 5th grade graduation, we'd all be sitting in Nate's room reminiscing on those times? It really makes me happy and gives me hope that some things will never change.
When I got home I talked to Rich for a few hours. We usually have amazing conversations but honestly, nothing compares to last night's. I can't even put into words what I want to say. We both established that we've been hurt in the past. Things that were wrong have happened to us, things we didn't want. But now we know what we ARE looking for and what we want, and what's right. And that's each other. You have to lose to know how to win. I think we both knew this already, but it's awesome to actually come out and say it. Some of the other things he said to me made me cry because they meant so much to me. I tend to have trouble living in the present. I'm always reflecting on the past and thinking about what is going to happen to me in the future. But last night even though we were talking about both, for once, I felt so unbelievably present. He's coming over today and I can't wait to see him.
I'm watching the SoCo "If You C Jordan" music video. I don't really like the song but Andrew looks so cute in the video!!
I also realized, among many other things, what kind of person I am. When people joke around and call me a deep person, I join in because I enjoy making fun of myself haha, but it's true. I was staring at a crack of streetlight coming through the blinds and I got completely lost in it, creating images and stories in my mind. I guess that kind of thing is something that comes along with artistry, because imagination is necessary to create. I wouldn't change myself for anything.
Last night Kayla and I went over to Nate's house and sort of half watched the Wedding Singer. We basically talked about everything and reflected on the old days. It's crazy to think how old we are now and how everything ended up falling to place. I mean, Kayla is my best friend ever, and Nate is one of my best friends. Who would have thought that years after 5th grade graduation, we'd all be sitting in Nate's room reminiscing on those times? It really makes me happy and gives me hope that some things will never change.
When I got home I talked to Rich for a few hours. We usually have amazing conversations but honestly, nothing compares to last night's. I can't even put into words what I want to say. We both established that we've been hurt in the past. Things that were wrong have happened to us, things we didn't want. But now we know what we ARE looking for and what we want, and what's right. And that's each other. You have to lose to know how to win. I think we both knew this already, but it's awesome to actually come out and say it. Some of the other things he said to me made me cry because they meant so much to me. I tend to have trouble living in the present. I'm always reflecting on the past and thinking about what is going to happen to me in the future. But last night even though we were talking about both, for once, I felt so unbelievably present. He's coming over today and I can't wait to see him.
I'm watching the SoCo "If You C Jordan" music video. I don't really like the song but Andrew looks so cute in the video!!