Something Interesting
Okay, one of my last entries was "That BITCH!", right? Well, guess who just texted me? Out of a cloudy, black sky. So we talked on the phone for half an hour, because I called her, curious as to what she could possibly want. The last email I sent was not terribly nice. It was the email equivalent of a kick in the shins and a grin. So why was she now saying "I was thinking about you and wanted to say hi"?
A couple of things popped into my head:
1) The thing if Florida is not working out so well. (a.k.a. "She wants me back.")
2) She needs absolution to go on with her life. (a.k.a. "Step 6 of the 12-Step Program)
3) I'm simply irresistible.
So I called her, curious, and have no answer. Of course, I want it to be 3, but I'm not completely delusional. I suspect it's a combination of 1 and 2. But in what proportion? Is it mostly gin or mostly tonic?
And why now, when I have at least 3 dates in the next week with 3 different people? That's assuming I don't go out with the Serbian again, which is still up in the air. Why did I never erase her number from my phone? Why did I KNOW it was her when she texted me tonight? I haven't thought about it in weeks.
And the worst of it is, I really enjoyed talking to her. Like, a lot. So, now we'll see. If we continue talking, then it's probably not just 2. Because she got that tonight, more or less. I never said, "It's okay, I forgive you," but it was enough, I suppose, that I called her back and wasn't a bitch.
I always know when I'm done with people, when a relationship (whatever that may be) is over, really over. Sunnie asked me why I had her number still in my phone, and I had no answer for her. It's because we're not done. Aw jeez.
A couple of things popped into my head:
1) The thing if Florida is not working out so well. (a.k.a. "She wants me back.")
2) She needs absolution to go on with her life. (a.k.a. "Step 6 of the 12-Step Program)
3) I'm simply irresistible.
So I called her, curious, and have no answer. Of course, I want it to be 3, but I'm not completely delusional. I suspect it's a combination of 1 and 2. But in what proportion? Is it mostly gin or mostly tonic?
And why now, when I have at least 3 dates in the next week with 3 different people? That's assuming I don't go out with the Serbian again, which is still up in the air. Why did I never erase her number from my phone? Why did I KNOW it was her when she texted me tonight? I haven't thought about it in weeks.
And the worst of it is, I really enjoyed talking to her. Like, a lot. So, now we'll see. If we continue talking, then it's probably not just 2. Because she got that tonight, more or less. I never said, "It's okay, I forgive you," but it was enough, I suppose, that I called her back and wasn't a bitch.
I always know when I'm done with people, when a relationship (whatever that may be) is over, really over. Sunnie asked me why I had her number still in my phone, and I had no answer for her. It's because we're not done. Aw jeez.