YOur hot and your cold
ITS DECEMBER 4th i cant believe it. I have two weeks left of the semester and then i am done with my first semester of college the time where does it go. The first few weeks were so slow and then once i got into my element it just zoomed on by. Also i think going home so much may have added to the affect. Anywho..lets see what has gone on since November 10th a lot acatully..Umass has been fun. One weekend Brendan and Madison came up.. that was interesting.brendan got a little something somethign form a boy and i hooked up wtih this boy it was quite disturbing beacsue he was so sweat and all. oh well one mroe number on my list. but that hook up got me thinking that i dont like hooking up with random boiz but i will ahve to learn since the following weekend jeremy madiosn and freinds came up and i saw them.which is unfrotautne. i ended up having thes ame old story iwth jeremy..only tradgedy can come of that..then its thanksgivnig break.which was fine thanksgiving wasnt as bad as expected i workde alot..adn then itw as my brithday. let me tell you it was the worst birthday of my entire life..i dont know though last years was pretty bad..but i got so trasehd completly blacked out Jeremy yet again was mean to me he told me he didnt want to "hook up" anymore and there are more importnat girls. WHEN WILL I GET IT THROUGH MY HEAD THAT HE IS NOT WORHT IT! who the hell knows hopefully i look back on this SOMEDAY SOON and say why did i even waste my time..slowly im beignign to realize itsn ot worth it but he makes no sense becsuae he acted like ntohign happened the next day at work.who the hellknows .. christmas rbrek should be interesting to tsay the least..i feel like next semester will be blossming with fun in da sun and new boiz and hooefully i will put myself out there more then i ahve this semester. um what else..i dont know not much iguess other then stupid stupid unecssary drama with myself. final are in alittle over a week and they should be intereisntg..it could make or break me hopefully i dont fail nutrition which i very well could ..which iwll be oh so tragic. i like school though when i am here i am happy and i dont htink about nonesne as much as i do when im home..oh stauryd im goign to nyc with alyssa kate jackie kerry and joe..that will be fun hopefully i am looking forward to such an exctiging trip and only for 15 dollars! oh baby. thus meanign i ccnat go out this weeknd thus i am going go out tonigh probbaly my last thrudsay night out..until next semester shocking i know. well..that ill be all for now i justl ike to update on my nonesene of a life becuase the things i compalin about now are so miniscule in real problems but its my life my porbelsm and i take them as they come..so gay..maybe i should start to have feeligns yes no mayeb so oh well.another one bitse the dust as i alwasy say seeeeeee ya