minor breakdown
so today around 6th period i had a little breakdown....i couldn't help but cry, night school is hell i get barely any sleep at night and i have no time to eat....on top of that there are teachers yelling at me because they don't give a fuck what it does to people but it makes them feel better *cough cough* Kapp *cough cough* kim *cough cough* and then on top of that my fuckin family is so concerned with themseves that they complain about taking me to school and they complain how i am never here to clean the house....HELLO I AM NOT HERE TO CLEAN THE HOUSE THAT YOU GUYS MESSED UP....what the fuck, and people wonder why i hate going home....i wouldn't really call this my home, my home is with sarah or liz or branden, not here not this place....then my mom tried to tell me that i should drop drumline cuz i don't get credit for it....but its okay because SHE is not the one with the endless schedule, and SHE isn't the one who everyone uses as a krutch, and when i say everyone i mean my family, I am the one who actually has to do everything, and i am tired....so...so tired of picking up the slack for them, i am doing all of this shit so i can get the fuck out of here, so i can do better then they ever could because of me....i am what went wrong in their life and now i guess this is her way of paying me back....its not my fault that her marrage is crap because they don't talk to eachother, or she just doesn't understand how to deal with him....how is that for you, i know how to deal with his little temper tantrums and she has no clue...she has only known him one more year than me...but anyways, i guess i better eat something so i can sleep and start this endless fucking cycle all over again.....