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*falling back on the over sized couch in the greenroom and sighing softly, closing my eyes and listening to all the commotion taking place backstage, smiling slightly and mumbling to myself..the things I don't miss about being on the road..
*laying there for a few more moments then pulling myself up, reaching down and pulling my bag up on the couch beside me removing my laptop and waiting for it to load*
"WOW!! where to even begin?..I'm in Arkansas with Eddie right now, spending some much needed time with him. I haven't been able to see him much since he started this tour which in it's own way has driven me crazy. The last few months have been very touch and go between us, but things are going so well that at this point it's all that matters to me. We've been spending a lot of time just talking and laughing which to me is a breath of fresh air. There's nothing more...*stops to think of the right word*..comforting?..then having one of, if not your best friend to lay beside at night and just talk about nothing. I know it's gonna take some time to get back to where we use to be but I'm learning to accept that..One day at a time, it's the only way.
I love being with him and above that I love the way I feel when I am with him. He's taught me so much about myself and even though I wish I could take back everything I ever put him through I know that it's not only made me stronger but it's made me wiser. I will never take someone I care about more then life for granted again. I owe him so much and just hope he actually can even begin to understand how much he means to me.
*turns my head quickly hearing one of the sound guys rush past the door calling out to someone..shaking my head slightly then continuing.
"Anyway, the tour seems to be running smoothly and both Chrissy and Justin have been doing an amazing job. I'm so proud of both of them and although I miss doing the shows I think I almost prefer just watching them. When you're onstage you never really get the full effect, but sitting there watching Justin, Eddie, Kelly and the rest of them just rip the shit out of that stage is something else. Speaking of which..it's almost that time gotta go show some support..again..*laughs slightly to myself* Look out Little Rock you're about to get Stripped and Justified.
*hits update and goes off to find my baby and the rest of the crew
*laying there for a few more moments then pulling myself up, reaching down and pulling my bag up on the couch beside me removing my laptop and waiting for it to load*
"WOW!! where to even begin?..I'm in Arkansas with Eddie right now, spending some much needed time with him. I haven't been able to see him much since he started this tour which in it's own way has driven me crazy. The last few months have been very touch and go between us, but things are going so well that at this point it's all that matters to me. We've been spending a lot of time just talking and laughing which to me is a breath of fresh air. There's nothing more...*stops to think of the right word*..comforting?..then having one of, if not your best friend to lay beside at night and just talk about nothing. I know it's gonna take some time to get back to where we use to be but I'm learning to accept that..One day at a time, it's the only way.
I love being with him and above that I love the way I feel when I am with him. He's taught me so much about myself and even though I wish I could take back everything I ever put him through I know that it's not only made me stronger but it's made me wiser. I will never take someone I care about more then life for granted again. I owe him so much and just hope he actually can even begin to understand how much he means to me.
*turns my head quickly hearing one of the sound guys rush past the door calling out to someone..shaking my head slightly then continuing.
"Anyway, the tour seems to be running smoothly and both Chrissy and Justin have been doing an amazing job. I'm so proud of both of them and although I miss doing the shows I think I almost prefer just watching them. When you're onstage you never really get the full effect, but sitting there watching Justin, Eddie, Kelly and the rest of them just rip the shit out of that stage is something else. Speaking of which..it's almost that time gotta go show some support..again..*laughs slightly to myself* Look out Little Rock you're about to get Stripped and Justified.
*hits update and goes off to find my baby and the rest of the crew