finally! i can write!
ok so something's been wrong with my lj and i wouldn't let me update... but now i can. yay! not much to write though actually. new year's eve was fun... being at melissa's lakehouse is always a blast. it was only the second time i'd been there but it felt like more than that - i know that house better than i know her real house! it was fun... we played dance dance revolution! go DDR! and sang karaoke. then ian was drunk. what a funny kid. and we started watching IDENTITY but then i remembered that it was a scary movie that i had started to watch a different time but had turned off cuz i was scared. i'm such a baby. so i rolled over, turned up my iPod, and went to sleep.
this past weekend was the best. it was so nice just to spend time with my lover again. no parties, no drinking, no hanging out with people i didn't like. just the two of us. like the old times. i think he needed it to. since then he's been calling me and wanting to talk, and flirting with me at school. i know it sounds stupid, but i miss that. he realized how much he likes me all over again. and i definitely needed that. so he said that he was going to have people over on friday, but then he said he wasn't. when i asked him why, he said it was because he thought i didn't want to. (which i don't, really) and i feel bad saying that i don't want a bunch of mean seniors groping my boyfriend while i stand there and watch, but i dont' want to! haha oh well. we'll see.
i wish i could go to the basketball game tomorrow! but i can't - i must coach my indoor game @ 7:15. maybe i'll stop by afterward. GOOD PLAN! haha the soccer game will be over by 8... i could be at the school by 8:15. in time to see the second half! we'll see. must study for finals as well! woo hoo. blah.
"they might make u think you're happy, yeah maybe for a minute or two...
but they can't make u laugh, no they can't make u feel the way that i do..."
~everclear