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..i honestly neglect this live journal business..very itimidated with the attention and involvement others have with it..but regardless.. here's another mediocre post..
i woke up this morning..[thanks to a benevolent phone call]..and actually felt rested, and ready for the day.(not to mention giddy, because it was andy) that honestly has not happened in a very long time..anticipating the day and not dreading or going through my routine of work, school, dorm. this last month feels like i've been slowly waking up from a coma. there's a myriad of psychology terms i could apply to myself, but it only distances me more.everyday i find something that i've forgotten, used to enjoy, used to be excited about...i find more emotion, finally anger, not guilt or inadequacy.. that in itself is a great comfort..but yet..i see how i've neglected many things.. how i've been selfish..and how much i need to change...i heart ephipanies..
the terrace is closing down after this semester..about eighty percent of the employees won't be rehired. uwm will also not have expresso on campus..which bothers me..it takes me from where i've invested two semesters of work, and promotion away..thus if i still have a job i will be thrown into the Taco Bell, Burger king fast food hell whole. which is defeating.
i woke up this morning..[thanks to a benevolent phone call]..and actually felt rested, and ready for the day.(not to mention giddy, because it was andy) that honestly has not happened in a very long time..anticipating the day and not dreading or going through my routine of work, school, dorm. this last month feels like i've been slowly waking up from a coma. there's a myriad of psychology terms i could apply to myself, but it only distances me more.everyday i find something that i've forgotten, used to enjoy, used to be excited about...i find more emotion, finally anger, not guilt or inadequacy.. that in itself is a great comfort..but yet..i see how i've neglected many things.. how i've been selfish..and how much i need to change...i heart ephipanies..
the terrace is closing down after this semester..about eighty percent of the employees won't be rehired. uwm will also not have expresso on campus..which bothers me..it takes me from where i've invested two semesters of work, and promotion away..thus if i still have a job i will be thrown into the Taco Bell, Burger king fast food hell whole. which is defeating.