world can fuck off and die
Argument with dad about moving out and getting married costs - check
Fight with mom about Julie and Mike going out without me there - check
Apparently upsetting Mike when trying to make plans - check
Another fight with mom this morning - check
Yay life is grand!
Why is everyone so uptight these days? This is the first time in many many years where I've actually felt depressed for more then an hour here or an hour there. It's been two weeks. And it worries me cuz that is not me. I like to be carefree and doing the whole random plans and all about how life is fun and that stuff. But now it seems that if I make plans they always fall through. And I always some how seem to upset Mike. That pisses me off cuz I never quite know why. Perhaps we need some time to ourselves, but who knows when that will happen. Maybe those who are closest to me are right and the world is much better if all you do is drink...all the time...every day....ugh....hate that too. Running away from reality only takes you so far before it all catches up.
Well, this writing stuff out helped a bit, get some shit off my mind cuz I can't shut it off.
Perhaps tomorrow will look up.
There are some days I wish I could just sleep forever.
Fight with mom about Julie and Mike going out without me there - check
Apparently upsetting Mike when trying to make plans - check
Another fight with mom this morning - check
Yay life is grand!
Why is everyone so uptight these days? This is the first time in many many years where I've actually felt depressed for more then an hour here or an hour there. It's been two weeks. And it worries me cuz that is not me. I like to be carefree and doing the whole random plans and all about how life is fun and that stuff. But now it seems that if I make plans they always fall through. And I always some how seem to upset Mike. That pisses me off cuz I never quite know why. Perhaps we need some time to ourselves, but who knows when that will happen. Maybe those who are closest to me are right and the world is much better if all you do is drink...all the time...every day....ugh....hate that too. Running away from reality only takes you so far before it all catches up.
Well, this writing stuff out helped a bit, get some shit off my mind cuz I can't shut it off.
Perhaps tomorrow will look up.
There are some days I wish I could just sleep forever.