6-23-06 Update
Got a job, and I make good money...Well enough of that.
I could finish my last update, but there's just to much to say. It could be done, yes, but I know what happened and so does everyone else involved. For those of you feeling left out of my life( like there is any). Just privatly message me. Would say shoot me an email, but the quickest way to reach me would be through xfire Jenkin963, add me to your friends and give me a buzz.
Now for the real news....
I have everything I could every want, friends, family, a girlfriend, and a good job. BAMMP!!! Wrong, but all that isn't worth complaining about here. Instead of bloging this, I will just deal with it. The real problem I do have isn't even really my problem. Just, you know me, I need to make everyone happy just so I can have some of that happiness. I have a friend, and I can't honestly say weither or not its a problem, she dated a friend of mine. No problem right, considering that I barely new her at the time. Life goes on, and then she cheats on my friend just before breaking up with him. It's high school, life goes on. Dates another guy, as far as I can tell he's a dick, and everyone hates him. People become used to habit, so what do you know she cheats on this guy to, then breaks up with him. I don't want to hurt her feelings. I want her to be happy. Just I can't even talk to her about it without doing the previously stated. So that will be fun.
People are jealous of me and what I have. When I look around I see lies, and mistrust. I can't seem to understand why they envy what I have. When all I do have is simply a shattered connection to everyone
I want to really connect to someone, more like everyone. Life, at the moment, seems rather comotose and uneventfull even though I spend every waking moment doing something. Slow down and enjoy things is what I need, thats all.
Would say more, but that would be into my childhood and into my sadness.
Right now I don't feel immature or depressed, so I shall keep it that way.
JR06
"If you want to change something you must first change yourself, once you have done
that you can change the world."
I could finish my last update, but there's just to much to say. It could be done, yes, but I know what happened and so does everyone else involved. For those of you feeling left out of my life( like there is any). Just privatly message me. Would say shoot me an email, but the quickest way to reach me would be through xfire Jenkin963, add me to your friends and give me a buzz.
Now for the real news....
I have everything I could every want, friends, family, a girlfriend, and a good job. BAMMP!!! Wrong, but all that isn't worth complaining about here. Instead of bloging this, I will just deal with it. The real problem I do have isn't even really my problem. Just, you know me, I need to make everyone happy just so I can have some of that happiness. I have a friend, and I can't honestly say weither or not its a problem, she dated a friend of mine. No problem right, considering that I barely new her at the time. Life goes on, and then she cheats on my friend just before breaking up with him. It's high school, life goes on. Dates another guy, as far as I can tell he's a dick, and everyone hates him. People become used to habit, so what do you know she cheats on this guy to, then breaks up with him. I don't want to hurt her feelings. I want her to be happy. Just I can't even talk to her about it without doing the previously stated. So that will be fun.
People are jealous of me and what I have. When I look around I see lies, and mistrust. I can't seem to understand why they envy what I have. When all I do have is simply a shattered connection to everyone
I want to really connect to someone, more like everyone. Life, at the moment, seems rather comotose and uneventfull even though I spend every waking moment doing something. Slow down and enjoy things is what I need, thats all.
Would say more, but that would be into my childhood and into my sadness.
Right now I don't feel immature or depressed, so I shall keep it that way.
JR06
"If you want to change something you must first change yourself, once you have done
that you can change the world."