God I Hate This...

[jenkinator]

So I woke up this morning, really missing my mom, home, everything. I sat up, and I just wanted to start crying. I don't know what the problem is. I still have 21 days left until Thanksgiving break starts, and I can finally go home. I know I sound like such a baby on this thing, but I seriously feel like I'm in prison. It's not helping that I have a huge ass exam today that i don't feel entirely ready for, despite the fact that I studied big time. It's also not helping that my roomate keeps asking me if I'm going to be in town this weekend (eventhough I have told her five times that I am stuck here until the 22nd), or keeps wanting to know what I am going to do this weekend, because this guy that she dated for a month (not kidding, a month) is coming into town and she wants to sleep with him again but doesn't feel like shelling out the money for a hotel room. So instead she chooses to flaunt her hoe bag ways in front of pretty much everyone in the hall, and is like proud of it, even though they all pretty much look at her like she's a gaint hoe bag and she doesn't even get it. So the fact that I am deeply unhappy (not to mention all alone) here, compounded with the fact that I have four tests over the next three weeks, with no break for normalcy in between, and an almost guaranteed case of sleep deprivation in my near future (thanks to the roomate who has no manners), I woke up wanting to curl up in a little ball and cry. I still kind of want to cry, but even more I want to just get the test over with and then grab some food and then just go to sleep for the next two days, because time passes much more quickly when you're sleeping, and you don't have to face your fears. I think that is what pisses me off the most, is that hoe bag (we will refer to her as HB from now on) keeps depriving me of the one thing I have to look forward to here, sleep. And the thing is, she does it on purpose most of the time, she is trying to get a rise out of me, trying to get me to just explode and yell at her, but I have been very mild mannered so far. So, although I am absolutely miserable, put one point in the Jenks column for now.

And I am improving on the bass for now, woohoo.