Its been awhile...

[jenkbp]

Yes im still alive, and working all week and usually just chilling with lil noise, and just relaxing on the weekend. But I have a moment to quickly update you all of my life at work since the kids are being busy for another hour, YES! Well whats on my mind as always seems to be the case is the boy, I guess im having more of a difficult time than I would have first imagined, because its now been a full month and half of no seeing him, and he was very apart of my everyday life for well the better part of 2005. It seems that right before my period, that PMS stage, I get all anxious and question every little thing, like not hearing from him in a few days, even though I know how busy school can be. IM just worrying that okay we are doing a long distance thing, and soon ill get to see him now that I have my own 2 bedroom townhouse, and have settled in nicely at work and such. But, i always have to think negatively im not really sure how to think postively because I feel something bad will invitebly happen. If you happen to be Courtney or Molly then you know how ive been since I seem to call you two often! I mean it was just Tuesday that I finally got him on the phone, and i tried to explain how i felt and he listened, cause i know he does and he said what i wanted to hear, the "Jenn, i miss you and i love you" call me later which i knew he'd be asleep but i always call, to leave voicemails. Why do i question this then? because I dont have him closly by to just feel better about it all??? Yes im def. struggling and trying to be postive and I know ill be better once im done pmsing. Any thoughts?...

I miss him, and he knows this, but i feel maybe its easier for him cause he has all his boys, and well i have few people down here, and i really just want him to be near me...

New address..

1921-B Eastover Drive
South Boston, VA 24592

Miss you all too!!!