All that matters is Christ and Him crucified
I am weak. God is good. He is faithful even when I think He is moving slowly. God is just as interested in the process than He is the product. I hate that!
My oldest started Kindergarten at the public school down the street. Her perfectionism and her fear of not knowing everything has paralyzed her and it has caused her to be terrified of school. (What the heck is wrong with her? Oh yeah, she's MY kid.) Yesterday was better. I only had to stay half of the day with her.
It is amazing to me how our kids reflect back who we are. I can already see in my five year old some of the consequences of our parenting, both good and bad. I am so grateful to the Counselor. He is granting me insight and wisdom on how to love Meg right now. He has also provided wonderful support through my friends for perspective and helping with the smaller ones so I can accompany Meg at school. The teachers and staff have been wonderful also. I have fallen on my knees in tears a few times this week on the verge of ripping my hair out. As my wise friend/pastors wife said "When we are fearful, we usually sin out of that fear." Meg has been acting out in her fear and it has thrown me for a loop. I in turn have nagged her and it is a vicious cycle. My inconsistent and emotional responses haven't given her much to steady herself on. All of the changes with Dave and his career, school and church etc. has reeked havoc on my security seeking girl. She hates change and lots is changing. This insight has helped me give her more grace when she has acted out the last couple of days. She has responded well. It is a season.
God bless my husband. He is under tremendous stress. He bears it silently for the most part. Lord, help me support and love my family. Be my source of strength as I pour out into my loved ones what you pour into me.