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Last night we went to Jame's & Tom's apartment. It was good to visit. When we got there I wished that I could have gone to the party. But, I'm responsible for Arianna now & I was tierd too. I crashed as soon as we got home. I was super tierd. Maybe next time when there's a party I'll be able to go. Sometimes I feel bad to ask my mom to watch Arianna. I dunno, I get these weird vibes from her sometimes, so I'd rather just stay in. Then I end up feeling guilty too, like I'm a bad mom for wanting to go out. I guess it would be different if my mom encouraged me to go out sometimes so I could have a break. That's what I really wish she would do rather than me having to ask her for one. Like for example for Lenora's birthday...they all went to play pool together & hang out & Lenora's mom was telling me to go with them, but my mom was there & she wasn't saying anything, so I ultimately decided not to go 'cause I could kinda tell she didn't want to watch her. Duh she wasn't going to say anything to me if I went, but she didn't encourage me to go when I told her I was gonna stay home. I didn't really care though. I'm about to go grab some lunch, I'm starving.