"I shouln't have to cry all the time."

[jeniseffingrad]

I miss Tommy and Bailey so fucking much.
I want my old life back,
when I stayed at Tommy's more than I was actually at home.
When I slept between him and Bails almost every night, and woke up the same way.
I miss cleaning and cooking with him.
Why do I always fuck everything up?
I feel lonely and sad all the time.
Especially at night.
That's when it's the worst.
I just hate this so fucking much.
I want to go back about 4 months.
That would be perfect.
I wish I could go back and tell myself how much I'd miss him.
And tell myself to stop being so jealous and stop starting all the fights,
and not being able to let things go.
I wish I could tell myself how badly I was going to ruin everything.

Please please please miss me atleast half as much as I miss you.
I need to be with you.
I need it so bad.
Please realize that you feel the same way.
Please.