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seems everyone's homesick..
haven't been home in almost two months.. sucks like shit..felt like crap a few weeks ago.. thought I passed that phase but it's back once again.
I sit there thinking about my family and it feels like they're moving on with their lives and I'm not there to witness it and I miss out on everything because I'm not there every morning when tj and dev has their stupid and wack days, when mom sits on the computer playing games and that sense of protection. My family is like my security blanket and it's basically gone..
It's silly, I know.. living only a hour away but it seems like I never can find time to go home.. since I play volleyball. I would give anything in the world just to go home and hug mom at least once.. just once. Every time mom talks to me, everytime I get an email from one of my siblings, I burst into tears.. knowing I'm here and they're there and there's nothing I can do about it. And who can forget milo? my dear dog.. makes me wonder if I come back home.. will he know it's me? or have I been gone too long?
this sucks. there's nothing I can do but wipe my tears and wonder.
haven't been home in almost two months.. sucks like shit..felt like crap a few weeks ago.. thought I passed that phase but it's back once again.
I sit there thinking about my family and it feels like they're moving on with their lives and I'm not there to witness it and I miss out on everything because I'm not there every morning when tj and dev has their stupid and wack days, when mom sits on the computer playing games and that sense of protection. My family is like my security blanket and it's basically gone..
It's silly, I know.. living only a hour away but it seems like I never can find time to go home.. since I play volleyball. I would give anything in the world just to go home and hug mom at least once.. just once. Every time mom talks to me, everytime I get an email from one of my siblings, I burst into tears.. knowing I'm here and they're there and there's nothing I can do about it. And who can forget milo? my dear dog.. makes me wonder if I come back home.. will he know it's me? or have I been gone too long?
this sucks. there's nothing I can do but wipe my tears and wonder.