It's been over a week!
Wow, this is the first time in a very long time that I haven't posted for over a week. AMAZING!!
It's Christmas and the only thing that makes me happy around this time is being able to get everyone THE perfect present. And I didn't do that... At least, I don't think I did. I want to make everyone feel special so bad around this time of year. I'm not getting any ideas on how to do that this year. I think I feel worse about my mom's birthday. Technically, today is my mother's birthday, and I let my sister buy her Christmas and birthday gift (we're splitting the cost). And it didn't happen until a few seconds ago, when I realized that I'm NOT OKAY with that. When I was wrapping my sister's present, Lukas' present, and my dad's present, I realized that I wasn't wrapping anything for my mom. And I just feel like crap now about it. Although, if you asked my mom what she wanted for her birthday, she would say that she just wanted to spend time with her family. And if you asked her what she wanted for Christmas, she would say, "Peace on Earth." So, I guess just being there and giving her a hug would be enough of a present. But it's not.
Another reason is my dad. I spent $80 on him this year, on something he'll definately enjoy, but I don't think that's enough. It's not special enough. He deserves more. Like my mom, they both deserve more. I mean, how do you pay someone back for giving you life? You can't do it in one year. I know that. I just think I'm not doing enough for them.
Oh, and I'm COMPLETELY SICK of jewelry commercials. They make it seem like everyone's got that 'someone special'. Fuck off! EAT SHIT AND DIE KAY JEWELERS!! Every kiss begins with a 'hey, I'd bone you sometime in the near future' type of feeling in your groin, not a platinum, ruby, fuck-all shiny thing... fuckers...
I have a little Captain in me, btw... uh... Merry Christmas!
It's Christmas and the only thing that makes me happy around this time is being able to get everyone THE perfect present. And I didn't do that... At least, I don't think I did. I want to make everyone feel special so bad around this time of year. I'm not getting any ideas on how to do that this year. I think I feel worse about my mom's birthday. Technically, today is my mother's birthday, and I let my sister buy her Christmas and birthday gift (we're splitting the cost). And it didn't happen until a few seconds ago, when I realized that I'm NOT OKAY with that. When I was wrapping my sister's present, Lukas' present, and my dad's present, I realized that I wasn't wrapping anything for my mom. And I just feel like crap now about it. Although, if you asked my mom what she wanted for her birthday, she would say that she just wanted to spend time with her family. And if you asked her what she wanted for Christmas, she would say, "Peace on Earth." So, I guess just being there and giving her a hug would be enough of a present. But it's not.
Another reason is my dad. I spent $80 on him this year, on something he'll definately enjoy, but I don't think that's enough. It's not special enough. He deserves more. Like my mom, they both deserve more. I mean, how do you pay someone back for giving you life? You can't do it in one year. I know that. I just think I'm not doing enough for them.
Oh, and I'm COMPLETELY SICK of jewelry commercials. They make it seem like everyone's got that 'someone special'. Fuck off! EAT SHIT AND DIE KAY JEWELERS!! Every kiss begins with a 'hey, I'd bone you sometime in the near future' type of feeling in your groin, not a platinum, ruby, fuck-all shiny thing... fuckers...
I have a little Captain in me, btw... uh... Merry Christmas!