2 faced.
instead of writing my 10 page research paper on black lesbianism. (stop laughing, its geniune i swear!) i sat and watched true life. i was in awe of the balls and this guy. and the ways in which he "tried" to justify himself. he has 2 girlfriends. screws both of them. both girls are extremely different. dresses differently for both girls. on top of this, there is third life as porn producer. double lives usually indicate 1 of 2 things.
A. you don't know yourself, so you cater yourself to someone else. you create yourself.
and then B. there is one real, and one fake that others find more acceptable.
then i realized i was B.
when im in califronia. im almost a different person. i dont know if its less true. but that person is more quiet subdued. where as, here. and san antonio. i am 20x more likely to streak, STONE COLD SOBER. i will walk right up to ppl and talk to them for no reason other than to say. i might be slight silly in califronia. but i keep it on down low, hardcore. plus. for the most part my life here exists completely seperate of them. they know that i live somewhere else. but anything else doesnt exist it, b/c i dont talk about it. to either set.
so for much shit, i talk about being honest. i realized im two faced. ouch.
A. you don't know yourself, so you cater yourself to someone else. you create yourself.
and then B. there is one real, and one fake that others find more acceptable.
then i realized i was B.
when im in califronia. im almost a different person. i dont know if its less true. but that person is more quiet subdued. where as, here. and san antonio. i am 20x more likely to streak, STONE COLD SOBER. i will walk right up to ppl and talk to them for no reason other than to say. i might be slight silly in califronia. but i keep it on down low, hardcore. plus. for the most part my life here exists completely seperate of them. they know that i live somewhere else. but anything else doesnt exist it, b/c i dont talk about it. to either set.
so for much shit, i talk about being honest. i realized im two faced. ouch.