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Mindfulness is the aware, balanced acceptance of the present experience.
It isn't more complicated that that.
It is opening to or recieving the present moment, pleasant or unpleasant, just as it is,
without either clinging to it or rejecting it.
So what is happening around me...I cannot open my heart to anything...I am afraid that I am completely afraid
afraid to trust.
to attach
to venture
to freely wear my heart on my sleeve again.
If got nothing to show for the last few years of my college experience except for :
some grades.
..some confidence,,,
some evidence that guys are scum.
friends are few and far between.
the people that I love will love me no matter who or what I become.
I just feel Like i Should. have accomplished so much more then what I HAVE accomplished.
Im in a town where I know absolutely nobody. an hour from my closest friend:/
I just want to do great things and I feel like Eastern cannot offer that to me. Also, That if it did I wouldnt be able to pursue it because of my job at the not-so-rad-shack. Its a little frusterating to be quite honest.
I need a new approach at life. Really. I do. because mine thus far isnt the cheese.
It isn't more complicated that that.
It is opening to or recieving the present moment, pleasant or unpleasant, just as it is,
without either clinging to it or rejecting it.
So what is happening around me...I cannot open my heart to anything...I am afraid that I am completely afraid
afraid to trust.
to attach
to venture
to freely wear my heart on my sleeve again.
If got nothing to show for the last few years of my college experience except for :
some grades.
..some confidence,,,
some evidence that guys are scum.
friends are few and far between.
the people that I love will love me no matter who or what I become.
I just feel Like i Should. have accomplished so much more then what I HAVE accomplished.
Im in a town where I know absolutely nobody. an hour from my closest friend:/
I just want to do great things and I feel like Eastern cannot offer that to me. Also, That if it did I wouldnt be able to pursue it because of my job at the not-so-rad-shack. Its a little frusterating to be quite honest.
I need a new approach at life. Really. I do. because mine thus far isnt the cheese.