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Seems like right now everyone is so happy and in love. And I'm very happy for everyone that's in either or both categories. I'm so happy for Dawn that she finally found a man that appreciates her and treats her like she deserves to be treated. I'm happy for Michelle and Terry who just got engaged. I'm happy for Katie who apparently went up north and snagged a guy. I'm happy for all of my friends and family whose weddings I attended the past 6 months, and I'm happy for Dave and Laura who got married yesterday in Canada. I'm happy for each and everyone of you. Now my question is where's mine? Do I get a happily ever after. I know that sounds like sour grapes or me throwing a pity party...and maybe it is a bit. But lately I've just been so down about relationships and love as they relate to me. I always seem to want what I can't have...or miss out all together. Everyone keeps telling me that my time is coming and that there is someone out there who will appreciate all the things that I am....but I'm beginning to doubt it. I'm tired of always either being alone or in a group. I just wanna be one of those lucky people. I don't want to be rich or famous...I just want to be happy. I want to get over this paralyzing fear I have that I will always be single. I want someone to want me like so many of my friends have. I want someone to talk to about my past and to share my future with, someone who wants to be there for the wonderful moments in my life, but doesn't run away when things get tough, or I have a crazy day. Logically I know it's bound to happen...but right now...I dunno, guess I'm just feeling weepy and lonely.....it'll pass.