Nobody knows everything about themselves cuz they're all worried about everybody else
Well this weekend was fun! I spent the night at Mache's on Friday night. We went bowling with Heather, Breanna, and Heidi. I had to work, and close both Friday and Saturday night, it sucked. But, I don't have to work Friday and I only work 11-3 on Saturday so that gives me a lot of free time. I lied to someone today, someone I've never lied to before. I felt so horrible and I didn't even deny it when he told me he knew, so that KINDA made up for it, right? When we broke up, I expected him to not want to talk to me, but I was wrong. We are "friends". I've never really known if x's can actually be friends. I mean if you were in such a serious relationship as Josh and I were than it's kind of hard. I mean, I'll never officially be over him, and I'm always going to love him. And I know y'all are prolly thinking "no you won't", but I really will. I mean him and I went through so much together that I can't jes forget about it and move on all that easily, there's much more to it. Although, he's kinda talking to someone else right now. I think he hates me after today, I hate myself.
I don't have to go to 1st or 2nd tomorrow. I have a doctors appointment for my stomach. It's being weird lately. I'm excited about the Tri-Hi-Y dance this year. I am going to Dallas at the end of the month to get a dress. I want to get those shoes that have the ribbon that wrap around your ankles, calves, whatever. They are so cute! When is prom? I'm not looking forward to that very much though, is that bad?
I feel like I am on a rollercoaster. Like, one day I'll be happy and in a good mood and then the next I don't want to have anything to do with anyone and I'm pissed off. I feel like I don't have anyone right now. I know I have Mache' now but idk it's weird. I feel empty inside or something.
Tired...night.
I don't have to go to 1st or 2nd tomorrow. I have a doctors appointment for my stomach. It's being weird lately. I'm excited about the Tri-Hi-Y dance this year. I am going to Dallas at the end of the month to get a dress. I want to get those shoes that have the ribbon that wrap around your ankles, calves, whatever. They are so cute! When is prom? I'm not looking forward to that very much though, is that bad?
I feel like I am on a rollercoaster. Like, one day I'll be happy and in a good mood and then the next I don't want to have anything to do with anyone and I'm pissed off. I feel like I don't have anyone right now. I know I have Mache' now but idk it's weird. I feel empty inside or something.
Tired...night.