"red roses and yellow daffodils"

[jenellers]

I don't think I neccessarily should have visited Mike. It made things weird. I refuse to be one of those girls who talks about her boyfriend all the time after they broke up... so I'll stop there. I love him, I miss him.. but the feelings aren't mutual and it pisses me off. I feel like puking.. drank too much last night. I drink too much period. 5 out of 7 days if you bump into me on the street past 12 o'clock chances are I'm wasted on my ass.. and that sucks. I'd like to have a sober night one night where I smoke cigarettes and drink.. water or coke or something fruity like kiwi tea snapple. It just seems like everywhere I go someone has a shot in front of my face or a 40 or a drink. Can't we all just be sober one night? I could say no and chill for the night sober by myself.. and I've done that a couple times.. I just want a sober partner. I'm weak like that.
...jeff tweedy forever.